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A glimmer of sun in the midst of darkness

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I've been in the midst of a dark, gloomy pit for several months now.
I've been depressed and distraught. emoticon
My eating has been terrible, emoticon emoticon emoticon I've gained weight, I can't exercise without being in pain afterwards and I've had to shell out lots of money for chiropractor visits & massages that my insurance won't cover.
My job is a nightmare. I'm starting to have major anxiety issues. emoticon
Every morning I wake up thinking, today will be the day it will all turn around and every day something jacks up my progress.
BUT... I think I may have stumbled on why I am going through this. I see a glimmer of light in my darkness... emoticon
Over the last 3 years my job has gone from bad to worst. My work environment has gone from a 'pretty great place to work' to the 'pit of despair'. Angry coworkers. Layoffs. Buyouts. New owners. Shipping jobs overseas. No raises. Longer hours. Broken promises. I want out.
(I do the whole I'm thankful I have a job & can pay my bills thing. I know lots of people are unemployed. BUT, when your job is killing your spirit, is it really something to be thankful for?)
And then how do I leave? I've been here for 17 years. Where will I go? What will I do? I feel stuck. Trapped.
On Monday, due to my running injures, I came in contact with someone who out of the blue asked me to come work for them in January. To say that I was dumbstruck, speechless is an understatement.
Could it be, that God allowed my injury in order to point me to my future? To my way out? *hmmm* Serious thoughts to ponder. emoticon
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    Heather...Oh I am sorry you were going through this. Are things a little bit better now? I'm going to try to be back to Spark on a more regular basis as well as I want a fit trim running body back this spring and summer! Keep pressing forward...I know you can do this and I hope as I type this you are already feeling better. Chin up girlie!! Lots of hugs and love! Miss you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1875 days ago
    I'm sorry for your pain; I know, from experience how a thankless job can drain you. Sometimes I would think, "Lord, this is how the pharisees treated you." I left the job and never regretted it. I will hope and pray that the new job works out for you.
    1977 days ago
    wow, alot of things on your plate.

    maybe this is the way out.

    good luck with what you decide
    1978 days ago
    I hope you find the answers that you need soon. That is a lot to deal with.
    1978 days ago
    Yes Heather we are sending you love and want you to feel better . It is not good to feel darkness all around . look forward to something everyday and look to see how you can change your situation with work . Happy you have a job .yes it helps pay bills . so you do not have that burden on your plate also . hugs to you . emoticon emoticon
    1978 days ago
    Dear Heather HUGE......:::::: emoticon ::::::...

    Thank you for opening your heart here at SP! I am here for you & I know others love & care for you...I have been and will continue to pray for you through this dark time. emoticon
    I cannot imagine staying 17 years at a place like that. Praise the Lord for opening the door to another season in your life.

    love YOU!!! emoticon laura

    1978 days ago
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