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A glimmer of sun in the midst of darkness

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I've been in the midst of a dark, gloomy pit for several months now.
I've been depressed and distraught. emoticon
My eating has been terrible, emoticon emoticon emoticon I've gained weight, I can't exercise without being in pain afterwards and I've had to shell out lots of money for chiropractor visits & massages that my insurance won't cover.
My job is a nightmare. I'm starting to have major anxiety issues. emoticon
Every morning I wake up thinking, today will be the day it will all turn around and every day something jacks up my progress.
*sigh*
BUT... I think I may have stumbled on why I am going through this. I see a glimmer of light in my darkness... emoticon
Over the last 3 years my job has gone from bad to worst. My work environment has gone from a 'pretty great place to work' to the 'pit of despair'. Angry coworkers. Layoffs. Buyouts. New owners. Shipping jobs overseas. No raises. Longer hours. Broken promises. I want out.
(I do the whole I'm thankful I have a job & can pay my bills thing. I know lots of people are unemployed. BUT, when your job is killing your spirit, is it really something to be thankful for?)
And then how do I leave? I've been here for 17 years. Where will I go? What will I do? I feel stuck. Trapped.
On Monday, due to my running injures, I came in contact with someone who out of the blue asked me to come work for them in January. To say that I was dumbstruck, speechless is an understatement.
Could it be, that God allowed my injury in order to point me to my future? To my way out? *hmmm* Serious thoughts to ponder. emoticon
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  • v FROSTIERACES
    Heather...Oh I am sorry you were going through this. Are things a little bit better now? I'm going to try to be back to Spark on a more regular basis as well as I want a fit trim running body back this spring and summer! Keep pressing forward...I know you can do this and I hope as I type this you are already feeling better. Chin up girlie!! Lots of hugs and love! Miss you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1276 days ago
  • v NEWSTARTNANA
    I'm sorry for your pain; I know, from experience how a thankless job can drain you. Sometimes I would think, "Lord, this is how the pharisees treated you." I left the job and never regretted it. I will hope and pray that the new job works out for you.
    1378 days ago
  • v FIT_MAMA_2_FOUR
    wow, alot of things on your plate.

    maybe this is the way out.

    good luck with what you decide
    1379 days ago
  • v FITFOODIE806
    I hope you find the answers that you need soon. That is a lot to deal with.
    emoticon
    1379 days ago
  • v SUGARSMOM2
    Yes Heather we are sending you love and want you to feel better . It is not good to feel darkness all around . look forward to something everyday and look to see how you can change your situation with work . Happy you have a job .yes it helps pay bills . so you do not have that burden on your plate also . hugs to you . emoticon emoticon
    1379 days ago
  • v VISUALLYRICS
    Dear Heather HUGE......:::::: emoticon ::::::...

    Thank you for opening your heart here at SP! I am here for you & I know others love & care for you...I have been and will continue to pray for you through this dark time. emoticon
    I cannot imagine staying 17 years at a place like that. Praise the Lord for opening the door to another season in your life.

    love YOU!!! emoticon laura


    1379 days ago
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