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I just want to stop thinking about food

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

I am mentally exhausted. I'm so tired of thinking about food, logging food, planning ahead, thinking about what I can and can't eat, packing my breakfast and lunch. I just want to be "normal" and eat when I'm hungry and not eat when I'm not. It sounds so simple, yet it is obviously very hard, at least for me. I lost weight several years ago. I was doing great with both diet and exercise for so long, but something happened over the last year. My emotional eating is out of control. I make a plan, I review my goals and my inspiration board, and recommit every day, yet I fail often. I've gained four pounds (yes, I brought back the scale), which made me mad this morning and yet I over ate at work again. Even though I worked out this morning before work, I did another 55 minutes of kickboxing tonight and ate a bowl of Total for dinner trying to make up for it, but I know this is not right.

I noticed a warning at the bottom of my exercise tracking log cautioning me about working out too much and eating too little. I hadn't noticed this before, but I looked back and it's been there for several months. Could that really be my problem? I find that hard to believe. I typically try to stay around 1600 calories, but on biking days I often eat around 2000. That doesn't sound like too little. How does one know? What is the right balance? When I bike on the weekends, I burn around 3800 calories over the course of the week. I'm afraid to ease up on the exercise until I clean up my eating. I don't know what to do.

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    I'm not an expert either. With that said, I'm finding that achieving the balance to help us maintain our goal weight is an experiment. I have also come to see why so many maintainers weigh themselves everyday or ever-other-day. It makes sense to me that you have to increase your caloric intake on bike days. That requires a lot of energy.

    I hear fear in your words and I can empathize. What I have to keep telling myself is if I gain 1 or 2 pounds back, it's not the end of the world. Just an opportunity to review my eating/exercise habits and take it from there. You're right; thinking about food and always having a strategy on hand is mentally exhausting at times. However, if I don't, I know what will happen and I'd rather be my current weight and healthy and continue to be bothered with constantly thinking about food. "Being healthy is hard; being overweight is hard. Choose your hard".

    Good luck and enjoy your biking! Pat emoticon
    1980 days ago
    I'm so sorry that you feel mentally exhausted. It's so frustrating, I know. My advice would be to stop focusing on numbers so much. I turned over to your page and saw your pictures and read your goals. You should do it, too. You want to focus on being healthy. So ask yourself, "Do I feel healthy?" Focus on that feeling and stop this constant thinking of calories. It can only bring opposite results. I'm sure that by now you know the principles of healthy eating. Focus on that and try to handle your emotions whenever emotional eating is about to show its ugly head. Take a break from anything that right now seems stressful to you. You need it.
    I really wish you the very best of luck. And remember: "Winner is not the one who never fails but the one who never quits."
    1980 days ago
    I am no expert, so just a couple thoughts here. One of SP's articles today is Why You're Not Losing Weight and I thought it had some helpful information. I especially thought the part about how hard it is to compensate for over-eating through exercise made a lot of sense.

    Regarding the emotional eating, I just started reading a book called Shrink Yourself and so far it is pretty interesting and I hope will be helpful with my own tendency for emotional eating.

    I am sorry you are having a rough time with all this. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself!

    1980 days ago
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