I just want to stop thinking about food
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
I am mentally exhausted. I'm so tired of thinking about food, logging food, planning ahead, thinking about what I can and can't eat, packing my breakfast and lunch. I just want to be "normal" and eat when I'm hungry and not eat when I'm not. It sounds so simple, yet it is obviously very hard, at least for me. I lost weight several years ago. I was doing great with both diet and exercise for so long, but something happened over the last year. My emotional eating is out of control. I make a plan, I review my goals and my inspiration board, and recommit every day, yet I fail often. I've gained four pounds (yes, I brought back the scale), which made me mad this morning and yet I over ate at work again. Even though I worked out this morning before work, I did another 55 minutes of kickboxing tonight and ate a bowl of Total for dinner trying to make up for it, but I know this is not right.
I noticed a warning at the bottom of my exercise tracking log cautioning me about working out too much and eating too little. I hadn't noticed this before, but I looked back and it's been there for several months. Could that really be my problem? I find that hard to believe. I typically try to stay around 1600 calories, but on biking days I often eat around 2000. That doesn't sound like too little. How does one know? What is the right balance? When I bike on the weekends, I burn around 3800 calories over the course of the week. I'm afraid to ease up on the exercise until I clean up my eating. I don't know what to do.
Anybody have some advice?