I am proud. Proud of the fact I have been sparking for an entire year. Proud of the fact that I haven't given up on myself after many (many!!) losses & regains over my lifetime. I am proud to be a (re)sparker! Proud that I now truly consider my healthy lifestyle MINE and a way of LIFE! Proud to embrace the fact that I now shed weight - I don't lose it. For it will NEVER find me again.
Why won't it find me?
Because I have my spark. I have sure knowledge that I can forgive unhealthy choices, I have compassion for myself and make the time to care for myself. I have my sparkfriends & sparkteams to help me. I have a strong support group of friends & family. I have belief in myself.
What have I learned over the past 365 days of sparking?
Self compassion is my greatest ally in life - not just in shedding weight.
Make fun fitness goals & reward myself when I meet them.
Asking my husband to hide the scale for 10 months was a great choice. I no longer stress over weigh ins. yippeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Joining small, active sparkteams works much better for me than larger teams.
Tracking food is essential for me. E-S-S-E-N-T-I-A-L.
Paying attention to the weekly calorie differential rather than daily calories helps me be balanced & more realistic.
Meditation is key for an optimum good mood. I relate to my fellow humans much better after a dose of deep breathing.
Patience is still not easy for me. I want to be free from the excess weight now. But I know the slow shedding is healthier & patience in this spark venture may even eventually overtake self compassion as my strongest ally. Someday.
In the meantime, I will spark on!!!
Gotta share some sparkversary pics & stats.....................
2010 (I spent 2011 mostly hiding from cameras, so this is what I have, lol):
2012, 1 year (re)sparkversary - Sept. 16, 2012
Started around 350. This is a guess as my scale simply said --E-- for "error". It very possibly could have been more.
Last weigh in was 293. That's 57 pounds shed.
Beginning waist size: 49 inches
Current waist: 42.5 inches
I am ALL smiles. And so is my son! He loves to help mama exercise & we will spend many more years together.
I took this during my celebratory (re)sparkversary walk.