Tuesday, September 18, 2012
This quote was on my start page today and really clicked with me. I go so well, make nice progress and then just stop, I always have a different reason that lead me to stop trying, but mostly it always boils down to plain laziness on my part, that and letting other things/people be more important than me and my goals. I am not sure what the magic ingredient is that successful people have that I am missing, but I am going to do my best to figure it out and quickly. Maybe it is a lack of actual planning time, where I sit and schedule workouts and then stick to those like they were real appointments, I seem to put myself last and never can commit to myself like that. I want to, or I think I want to, because if I did I would make no excuses and stick with my plan, I would get up and do morning workouts, or figure how to fit in some activity in the evening. I don't do this. I know the exercise and is just as important as the eating, which I can do, or I can do for a while, and then bad habits creep back in.
Why do I let things derail me from my goals? Do I not want to lose the weight? NO that isn't true, I dream about it daily, I want my body back, I hate that feeling like I am going to burst out of my own skin that happens when creep close to 200lbs, it is so disgusting, and make me feel uncomfortable all of the time. So why do I stop so easily? Is it because the food is more important than me and my health? Healthy food tastes just as good and makes me feel so much better, so why do I slowly give up every time I start making progress?? Then when I come back to my senses and start eating right and getting back on the path to meet my goals I write one of these, blogs that talks about all the obstacles that are in my way and why I gave up and how I am not going to do that again, this is a pattern that I have been on for almost 6 years now, since I first started trying to lose the weight I gained with my second child.
I don't think I have the answers today, but I think I am going to really look at and analyze this, and see if I can figure out how to prevent it from happening in the future.
This weekend almost ended up being the end of my short lived beginning, I over indulged on Saturday, but then was a little bit better on Sunday, I didn't track anything until Monday, and was surprised to see that Sunday wasn't really all that bad, and I just kept going yesterday and I am just going to do my best to take it one day at a time, and make as many good choices as possible. I am still slowly working up to being more active and then will be adding more structured workout plan, when I get back into my groove. I think I am also going to do some research on the psychology of weight loss, I know the numbers, the math and how all that works, I have to eat less cals than I burn, I have to eat the right balance of nutrients, drink lots of water, do cardio, do strength training, I have done all this before, I was successful in the past, so I know that part, I just can't figure out besides my laziness, which I work hard to overcome everyday, what else is getting in the way to doing what I need to do, why I always think it is ok to stop trying to reach my goals...
So I forgot to thaw the chicken and figure out what was going in the crock pot, so no crock pot chicken tonight, it is still chicken tuesday though, so I will figure something chicken out, but I want it to be quick and easy.
Oh and something amazing that my bestest friend and I decided we are going to do next month that I have wanted to do for a long time, but never done, we are going to freezer cook, we have an aim to each get 20 meals in our freezers in one day. I think that doing this will help, because I am thinking that then about two nights a week for the next few months I can simply cook from the freezer. Many of them will be super easy to prepare, like making some crockpot meals where everything you need is all in one bag and you thaw it the night before and then stick it in the crock pot in the morning, Also going to try and make some breakfast burritos for the kidos and smoothie kits, where the frozen fruit is all together for each serving in one baggie and all I need to do is pull out the baggie, mix it with some milk or yogurt and walah I have my smoothie, I have stopped having them so often because digging all the stuff out of the freezer just takes too much time. I think that if this even goes well next month, then we will be planning on doing it once a quarter, and even though it will be an entire day of cooking, I LOVE cooking with my bestie, and we haven't really done it all that much since college, and having some great conversation will make it more fun and less work, plus if we plan well, you really cut down on time, by say chopping all the onions at once for all the recipes, then browning all the ground beef, cooking all the chicken together, that sort of thing.
Does anyone else freezer cook? I am very interested in others experiences if any of you have ever done this before...