Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Today was just a yucky day ;( There just isn't enough money to pay the bills and its weighing heavily on my shoulders. I've always been one of those girls that HAD to pay her bills on time, if not early and my bills have ALWAYS been paid. This time, there just wasn't enough money. I tried selling my Neil Lane bridal set I got for Christmas from my ex-husband and the jeweler I took them to tried to rip me off and offer me $300 for them...Seriously?
I'm trying to have faith...I know that if God brought me to it, He will bring me through it! Just gotta have faith, I keep reminding myself.
These past 2 months have been hard and Baby Moose still has a long road to recovery. He currently has to have 2 sets of dilations done every day. He is not happy with me for about 2 hours afterwards but it has to be done so that he heals properly internally.
I can't wait to get moved back home...I get to go home to visit this weekend and I need to just get away from SC for a couple of days. I need to be surrounded by people that love me and support me. I'm taking Chloe, my oldest, and Gabriel, the baby. The 2 middle boys will be staying with their dad to get some one on one time with him. We are going to my hometown's Peanut Festival. It will be nice to see my boyfriend and my family and friends.
I will keep reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day...tomorrow is a day to be positive. I have to be. I have 4 precious little ones depending on me.