Monday, September 17, 2012
Pretty much sums it up. In my conflicted head, that equals anxiety, fear, confusion, excitement, and.... more anxiety. Yes, I'm still weighing myself everyday and I'm 100% ok with that (huge accomplishment, but I know that is only because the scale is going down!), but I'm only updating my ticker on Wednesdays/THE WI day. But I SO want to update my ticker NOW, I want the world/SP to see that the scale has dropped, I want to update it, I want it to reflect currently, not 5 days ago. I want SP to go on the newsfeed "CANES4EVER63 has lost X pounds, congrats from Spark People!" and I want everyone to like it (greedy much??). I want... I just want to update it because for some reason, Wednesday's WI is what matters. Not today's, not yesterday's, and not even tomorrow's, but Wednesday's. I have NO idea how extreme Wednesday's WI has become in my mind, but it has and it's only Week 1! This was NOT the case last BLC (where I was updating my ticker everyday) and I hate that it has become the case now.
Ok, anxiety gone. Whew!
On a positive note, I made quite a good soup for dinner. Sweet potatoes and cauliflower. Yum! I had 2 cups for dinner, it was yummy. The only problem with JUST this for dinner? It's pure veggies and has no protein. Oh well. Maybe I'll make that a goal for this coming week - more variety in my meals.
I was going to have apples and honey after dinner tonight in honor of Rosh Hashanah, but since when do I actually celebrate my Jewish heritage? Uhm. Never. And I'm actually really full right now, so maybe tomorrow if I'm feeling up for more food after dinner. So L'Shanah Tovah!