Monday, September 17, 2012
It is time.
I've been on and off since July. I've lost and gained back weight since July. Weigh in this morning and I didn't lose one pound since last Tuesday. I was able to reach 2 pounds lighter one month ago, and I'm so freakin' tired of being in the 160's.
But I slacked off and off and off, and well now it's enough. I needed a break and two months is MORE than enough. It's too much. But let's not bawl over the past and only focus on the NOW.
Now is hardcore time. My goal, in January, was to lose 30 pounds. I started at 183, so my goal weight was 153. And while it went well for the first months, I pretty much stopped losing weight in April; then I joined Spark and started losing again, until July.
I know what I'm doing wrong. I was just too lazy to change it. Well not anymore. Now is the time. I feel mentally and physically ready to give myself 1000% to this. I'll be strict with myself until I've lost those damned 10 pounds that are constantly mocking me.
Training-wise, I really need to stick to my gym schedule. I didn't go all weekend. Saturday I didn't even leave the apartment until 8 PM for groceries. Yesterday I walked 4 kms in the sun, but that's it. I also need to get back on track with everything I was able to do before: swimming, zumba, jogging, walking. That was working well with me, so I really, really, really HAVE to go back to all that.
Food-wise, I need to cut on... extras and treats. Binging is pretty much gone, and I can actually stop myself. But I've been allowing myself to eat treats too often in the last weeks. Saturday night, chips (MY NEMESIS) were on sale so I bought a bag and ate it with my boyfriend. After having my bowl, and him his bowl, there was only a little remaining, so I told him: you can have it. And he insisted: no, you should have it. So I ate it. -_-
Yesterday I was meeting with a friend at the Second Cup (my zumba pal) and I had a pumpkin chillatte, and then my boyfriend joined us and we shared a piece of banana cake. During the day, on my 4 kms walk, I had time to think, and I felt ready to start over, to do better, to do more. So I decided this treat was my last for a while (well, last BIG treat). Now my desserts are going to be fruit or pieces of dark chocolate. I'll still bake dessert sometimes, but not as fat as the coffee cake I made. Portion-wise I'm okay, even though I tend to eat many little meals throughout the day because I'm at home.
My goal: lose 10 pounds in two months. On November 17th, I want to weight maximum 153 pounds. MAXIMUM. It'll be my 7 months Sparkversary. :)
LET'S DO THIS!!!!!