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Le Sigh

Monday, September 17, 2012

Well, I've gotta be honest. This day really kicked the crap out of me. I came off a terrible night of sleep, awful dreams about hurtful people from my past, woke up late. Ugh. Seriously considered skipping my swim this morning and sleeping more...but, as I said in my status, I've never missed a scheduled workout and I don't intend to start making excuses now. Especially since this morning's workout was supposed to be a run, but I'm protecting my tendon until it feels 100% perfect. So I got my butt up and went to the YMCA.

The swim was grueling. I am not even sure how I eeked out my regular 30 lengths in 30 minutes, but I managed to do it...and add on two more extra lengths in the last minute. It was hard. I suppose I powered through mainly because I was aware that there was an Ironman swimming in the lane next to me (my friend, Sue, who is currently training for her 3rd trip to Kona Ironman World Championships). It always helps to have a hero one lane over, whose mere presence makes you push yourself harder.

My body felt wonderful, but I got to work and the exhaustion returned. Perhaps it's the gloomy gray sky out my window or maybe the 40 or so e-mails that were begging for my attention or the pile of paperwork from last week on my desk that was waiting for me patiently and demanding action. Maybe it had something to do with my boss's quick visit, where she expressed frustration with some of our records (which are in my care and it's my job to keep). She would never point the finger at me to make me feel bad, but she is also under a lot of pressure. I don't have negative feelings against her, but I pretty much started out my day feeling disappointed in myself.

The minutes and hours ticked away and I worked and worked and now the work day is over and I still feel defeated. I feel immense pressure to comfort eat. I will really really try not to tonight.

I just want to go home, eat dinner, ice my ankle, take a hot shower, cuddle with some kiddos, go to bed and start fresh in the morning.

Sorry to be negative. Just one of those days. If you were standing in front of me, I'd totally ask you for a hug.
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TRICIAE2 9/19/2012 10:04AM

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ISABELLE31 9/18/2012 7:36PM

    Glad you were able to improvise!

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EARTHTONED84 9/18/2012 11:11AM

    No worries, we all know what it's like to just have a blah kind of day :) Very inspiring to hear that you did your swim despite the weather being cruddy and you were tired. So much so, that I am looking into my local recreation center about how much it would be to drop in and swim three times a week. Keep up the great job and remember, we are here for you!

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EBURGITE 9/18/2012 10:54AM

    hope today is better! emoticon

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LINDAKAY228 9/18/2012 10:54AM

    Everybody has days like that and it's good to be able to share both the ups and the downs here. I always am kind of suspicious of someone who's totally up all the time LOL! Life happens. Hope today is a better day for you.

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SWEETEYES0601 9/18/2012 10:35AM

    emoticon No worries. You are the Sparkiest SP member next to the big man himself I know! Don't let the turmoil of life keep you from remembering how inspirational you are to so many of us!

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NDKARIKARI 9/18/2012 10:13AM

    Keep your head up, Leah. It's one of those kinds of days, but you went through it and today is a completely new day.

sending happy thoughts your way,
Nana

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NEWMOM20121 9/18/2012 9:32AM

    I pray you got the rest you needed and today is a better day.

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KATYDID412 9/18/2012 9:21AM

    Sending a virtual hug your way. Hope today's better and you kick its a$$ instead of vice versa.

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NILLAPEPSI 9/18/2012 8:49AM

    Ugh! We all have days like that. Unfortunately, it's just a part of life. Yesterday was also a bad day for me & I was super grumpy. I almost decided not to go to the gym at the last minute, but I had my water & my gym bag in the car & I went anyway. I felt so much better afterwards (as I always do). Exercise really is a mood booster. I was in a good mood by the time I got home to hubby.

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AUTUMNBRZ 9/18/2012 8:12AM

    I loathe days like this one you had. Big hugs hon. Things will look brighter! Hopefully they already do!

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HEALTHY4HIM 9/18/2012 7:33AM

    REALLY sending hugs your way.
I hope that dinner, showers and cuddles are exactly what you did and that this morning starts out better for you.
We all have days like that, Leah... hang in there.

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OLIVIANIGHT 9/18/2012 7:31AM

    And I would give you one emoticon Good for you for going swimming anyway : )

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SLIMLEAF 9/18/2012 6:32AM

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Hang in there, Leah. You're doing really well.

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TRACYNOTGIVINUP 9/18/2012 6:08AM

    Glad to hear you got your swim in.for the day and I hope youbwoke feeling much better this morning. hugs to you!!!

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 9/17/2012 10:39PM

    If you were standing in front of me I would totally give you a hug when you asked for it! Good for you for still working out even though you didn't feel like it. I hope work gets better. Hang in there!

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GOING-STRONG 9/17/2012 10:06PM

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Believe me...we all have those days. Spark on my friend.
Hugs, Rhonda

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ADARKARA 9/17/2012 10:03PM

    I can give hugs! emoticon

It's been a rough week for me due to hurtful people, so I have an inkling as to how you feel.

It's a good thing you exercised anyway. I haven't exercised in a few days even though I know it will make me feel better.

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CHANGINGEMMY 9/17/2012 9:49PM

    emoticon Everyone has bad days but I'm so proud of you for going ahead with your swim!! It doesn't take much for me to just stay in bed. You're so motivating in all of your blogs and sometimes we just need hugs. :) Hope tomorrow is a wonderful day and you feel much better.

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WEEPINGANGEL74 9/17/2012 9:37PM

    emoticon Rough and tired days are the worst but you made it through the day! emoticon

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LIVEDAILY 9/17/2012 9:29PM

    And I would so totally give you one!!
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AUSFAM 9/17/2012 9:24PM

    You are not alone! Hugs to you and just drink a glass of water, take a deep breath, and go to bed early. Tomorrow is a new day--you can do this!

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SHIRE33 9/17/2012 9:23PM

    I can so relate. ((((((((YOU)))))))))) : )

You have high expectations for yourself. It's why you perform at such a high level compared to everyone else and yet feel defeated some days. But don't lose sight of how great you are, what a valued employee you are, and how much you are appreciated. And remember to appreciate yourself.

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KIPPER15 9/17/2012 9:18PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I hate when the week starts out this way. Turn it around. think good thoughts, smile, it really does help. Attitude can change things from bad to good or the reverse if you stay in a funk. emoticon emoticon

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KRYSTALLA 9/17/2012 9:09PM

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I hope you have a much better day tomorrow.

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PURSUEJOY 9/17/2012 9:07PM

    That WAS a rough day ~ and exhaustion is such a trigger for comfort ANYTHING!!!

Good for you to not miss your swim and for pushing extra hard!
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Good job staying focused at work and not being upset at the interaction ~ That's not easy!!
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And I am thrilled to be able to send hugs!!!
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We are in this together ~ and we are cheering for you!! Have a wonderful night's sleep!!
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JUNEAU2010 9/17/2012 8:56PM

    And I would totally give you a hug!
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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 9/17/2012 8:38PM

    Sounds like you need to veg with the kids in front of a really funny family movie. I'm glad you exercised even when you didn't feel like it. You are an inspiration. I hope everything at work gets sorted out.

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YOGAGIRL289 9/17/2012 8:34PM

  Good for you for doing your swim even though you didn't really feel like it! I hope you have a nice evening and a better day tomorrow.

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MDOTZERO 9/17/2012 8:29PM

    Yep, follow through with that end of day task list and hit the hay. Tomorrow will be better!
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TAMMYINPA 9/17/2012 8:27PM

    Tomorrow is a new day and it will be a better one. Hang in there. emoticon

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HEALTHY4ME 9/17/2012 8:27PM

    We all have days like this, weeks even. HUGS tomorrow will dawn brighter. HUGS

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COCK-ROBIN 9/17/2012 8:07PM

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BRITTEEG 9/17/2012 7:58PM

    emoticon Good for you powering through the funk and getting your workout in. *insert words of inspirational wisdom here* It gets better, just keep moving toward your goals.

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LINDAK25 9/17/2012 7:53PM

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Some days are just like that. Life is so much easier when you've had enough sleep! Sweet dreams.

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DR8561 9/17/2012 7:42PM

    Hope your evening is better with the sweet kiddos. emoticon

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ANDASI 9/17/2012 7:34PM

    This is not negative it is real life and that is why we need spark it keeps us aware of our feelings so we dont eat them.

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NARNIAROSE2003 9/17/2012 7:23PM

    It's OK, sugar! Friends understand our need to vent - and we are your friends. You should be so proud of yourself for continuing to do so well when you're feeling bad. Most people cannot do that! *hugs* Tomorrow will be better!

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ROSES4ME1 9/17/2012 7:07PM

    emoticon A giant virtual hug for you!! Get some rest - tomorrow will be better!

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ESSENCESMITH 9/17/2012 6:50PM

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FITFOODIE806 9/17/2012 6:42PM

    Well I hope you got to do exactly what the end says. A cuddle with kids always seems to help. I hope tomorrow is brighter.
And huge high five on getting that swim in! Further proof of what a dedicated athlete you are.

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