Monday, September 17, 2012
When I say family, I do not mean my kids or my family situation at home. You know by now that it is a VERY stressful time for me. This is about family that I do not care to associate with. No, I do not think I am better than them. Quit the opposite in fact. I have an aunt who drinks and never works. Who gets her money by several "sugar" daddy's. Her daughter is no better. I have uncles who have touched me, turned their back on me. The sad part is, this is all my stepdad's side of the family. Don't get me wrong, I love my dad. I love my mom but I really DISLIKE this wacko family. I never fit in because I was the "stepchild". I had cousins who got clothes, makeup and cool stuff while I got stupid stuff animals. Yea, I know, it sounds like I am incredibly jealous. And, as a young girl, I was. But that anger carried over into my adult life. Although I am not angry. Especially in this day and age of technonly. It is simple to just delete. The problem is, no one will call me. They all harass my mom which is stressful to say the least. Now, it is not jealous but as morphed into stress. I tried being nice, doing the "oh, I love and miss you" crap but it does not work with this family. the point I am trying to make to myself is, if it is stressful, even if it is family, move on. So, for me, it is time to move on. I am almost 40 years old and I do not have to like anyone if I don't want to. PFFT!