Monday, September 17, 2012
I hopefully start carrying this week so I should have a paycheck in 3 weeks. BUT for now we're still on a budget. Its my sucky week of the month so all I can think about is food, sleep, and BE QUIET! I'm not mean, I just get headaches. And we're budgeting our meats like crazy right now.
And I know all of this comes from being anemic. How do I know when I'm really really anemic? Yesterday I think I actually begged our roomate for what was leftover of his sandwich because I was starving but didn't want to stand up (I'm lazy but not that desperate to be lazy) and this morning I woke up covered in bruises and feeling like a snowstorm was in my room.
So I think with my paycheck I'm going to start getting serious about this anemia thing. I already take 2 iron pills a day. My shakes don't have a ton of iron in them (which I think is stupid) but they have an additional 22%. And honestly, my obgyn said I only lose about 4-5 tbsps of blood realistically with my period (and that's considered heavy?). So there has to be something causing me to be like this. It's gotten worse since I started losing weight. But I've also gained back some of the weight and it keeps getting worse.
This is my body. I like it a lot. The scale can't be the only reason I take care of myself.
BTW we had a fallout with our roomate the other day but it was a good thing. I was honest with him and Josh, they were honest with me and each other, now things are better. Lee even gave my kids some money for how much work they do around the apartment and for all the times they take out his dog and stuff. Things are really good here.