So today's blog is not a cheery one, but it has to be written out, if only for myself.
The backstory is that on Thursday night, my dad ordered pizza. Two mediums from Domino's, and I told him that if it had one meat and one veggie it would be ok. So he got one with sausage and black olive. I had 2 pieces, which is a usual dinner of pizza without going overboard. Well then after I'm done eating, he comes upstairs and asks how my pizza was. I said it was really good, and then he drops some info on me: he got extra cheese on it. I was upset. If he had told me that, I would have had ONE piece and something else for dinner. Two pieces with extra cheese is just too much. But it was already done.
On Friday, I came home and was expecting to have a couple of pieces for dinner because I had a fair amount of calories left I thought. Well I come home and there are 3 pieces left in the fridge (out of BOTH mediums) and they are all the other pizza (I'm not even sure what was on it). So at this point I'm rather frustrated. I mean, seriously, 2 mediums for 4 people and they are GONE in a day?! But whatever, I had something else.
So Saturday comes along, my brother goes with his friends to go disc golfing, and my parents invited me to a cookout at my aunt and uncle's house, which I at first accepted then turned down. My brother reminded me that it's election season, and my extended family ALWAYS gets on the subject of politics and it just upsets me. So I figure I can see them all in November for Thanksgiving, after the election is over with. I am on my own for dinner, and still craving that pizza. I had been seeing commercials on TV for Pizza Hut, they have a 'meal box' that is 2 med 1-topping pizzas, 5 breadsticks, and I ended up getting the pizza roller things. If you order it online, you get a free 2 liter! I was hooked on what seemed like a great deal.
My total order was 1 pizza with beef, the other with black olives (both pan crust), the breadsticks (I did not upgrade to the cheese sticks, the one good decision I made), and the pizza rollers, which are pepperoni and cheese inside of crust, rolled like you would roll a hot dog into a croissant. I got a regular Mt. Dew for the 2 liter since they didn't have diet. I also got an order of their quepapas, which are these delicious little round things that have potato, cheese and jalapeno in them. I know, I know, so much food, but I figured I would be ok.
So the delivery guy comes, and he is late. Then he lets me know why...apparently they had run out of the square pizzas (ok...) and they have instead upgraded me to 2 LARGES. That was the beginning of the end for me. I took it all upstairs and ate the quepapas, breadsticks, pizza rollers, and 2 or 3 pieces of pizza for dinner on Saturday night. Along with about half of the 2 liter. I think I had some Maltesers I brought back from Switzerland in there somewhere too. So that was horrible enough.
Then yesterday...I still had most of the pizzas left, and I have a bad habit of keeping pizza in my room overnight so that 1) my parents won't know until the next day that I ordered pizza, and 2) so no one else will eat all of it and then I won't have any left the next day. Old habits die hard. So yesterday...well...there was no pizza left when I went to bed. That's right, I ate almost 2 large pizzas throughout the day yesterday. I don't know how it all fit, I don't want to know. What I DO know, is that I feel like I have a food hangover. Both Sunday morning when I felt sick (I'm glad we didn't go to church yesterday, I'm not sure I could have made it out of bed that early) and then today. I feel like I put on at least three pounds, all in my stomach.
I'm not sure why I did it...with every piece I had yesterday I knew I shouldn't be doing it, yet my hand and mouth kept stuffing them in. My lack of self-control rearing its ugly head.
So today is a new day. I had my usual breakfast this morning (even though my stomach wasn't yet empty from yesterday, but I knew I shouldn't skip it), and I also bought one of those fiber one brownies. I had it for breakfast so that it can hopefully help me out. I have had probably 10-12 8 oz glasses of water so far, and I'm already feeling better. I did get my water in both Saturday and Sunday, but there was so much sodium and food, I'm not sure my body even felt it. I'm really going to shoot for the low end of my calories this week. I'm thinking maybe I'll have a bowl of cereal at night, like raisin bran or something else good (I think we have mini-wheats too). I love raisin bran, I had it for breakfast on Saturday. :-P I know that brownie will make it more difficult today, but I figured it's only 90 calories, and it's for a good cause with all the fiber in it. I have my usual lunch, a microwave meal (today it's a smart ones pasta with veggies) and a light and fit greek yogurt (which is only 80 cals!) and I'm planning on the cereal with maybe a banana for dinner. I'm always on the fence about bananas because it's like 100 cals for one serving of fruit, which I'm never sure is worth it. We'll have to see where I'm at after the cereal. I have no idea how much water I will end up with today, but I'll be drinking it all day and running to the bathroom way more than normal, but I'm ok with that.
My walk today should be awesome, it's nice and COOL outside! I wish I had an hour for lunch instead of a half hour so I could take longer walks, but I try to get a good workout in for those 30-35 mins I am able to walk. I also NEED to get back into my strength training!! I haven't done it since I got back from vacation, with no real excuse as to why I haven't. So that is also on tap for tonight.
Well, I think this blog has gotten to be long enough, and I feel better now that it's written out, even though I'm not looking forward to the comments all that much...be nice. :-( I had better get back to work though, I hope everyone else is recovering from their weekends, good or bad, and Monday is already half over!