I feel like my appetite has been ALL over the place the last week and a half. One week I'm barely wanting to eat an entire meal and the next week I can't eat enough...and now I can't eat without feeling sick afterwards...more on that later...
My weekend was good. The Boy had a few beers after work with some of the guys he works with and ended up getting home a little later than usual (he didn't realize that it was as late as it was) and actually apologized for not texting/calling me about what was going on... I didn't really care too much- I just kept myself entertained at my place until he told me he was heading home. On Saturday we both had errands and stuff to do so we made dinner around 7 and then just watched some TV and hung out. I did end up meeting another one of his friends which was nice. Sunday we went fishing and caught 6 NICE sized crappie. Luckily The Boy already had chicken in the oven and I just made some carrots and broccoli to go along with it when we got back. Sundays are not a good day to go fishing for the very reason of me not getting enough sleep...I woke up this morning needing more sleep than I got LOL.
I am definitely a 8-9 hours of sleep kinda girl. I know that studies have shown that everyone does not NEED to get that amount, and I know plenty of people who function on less, but for me- I need my sleep. If the Broncos weren't playing tonight, I would be going to be early.
I don't know if this is normal or just plain mean...but lately I've noticed myself reading peoples' blogs and sometimes looking at their SP page....well, when I realize or they've said something about their size/weight and they are for example- a size 7 or 9 and are wanting to be a size 5 I kind of... tend to not be interested in "getting to know" them. I know that losing weight can be a struggle for any and every one and no matter if you're trying to lose 20 lbs or 120 lbs it still takes work and it can be hard, but I just.... I don't feel like they need the kind of support that someone who needs to lose more weight might need. I feel like I'm being so mean and judging someone I don't even know and I'm very sorry if you're one of those people- I'm honestly not trying to be a b!^@%.... I just instantly let my immediate thought go to "why are they on here... they can probably just watch what they eat, work out 2-3 times a week and drop that weight without a problem"...I think part of it might be the fact that I was ALWAYS bullied by people who were smaller than me in general and I would give ANYTHING to be just a size 12/14.....let alone be a size 9. Oy... I hope this doesn't make people hate me...
Anywho....for the men who are reading this...this next section may not be much in terms of rating on the entertainment scale:
So, I haven't weighed myself in a couple weeks, but I'm waiting until my TOM comes and goes before I do that (My weight REALLY fluctuates during this time). Last week I felt like a bottomless pit when it came to wanting to eat...and I ate....and then ate some more... a lot of it involving chocolate and carbs and other unhealthy choices. Oy... I went from having a normal appetite to being unsatiable (sp?) for a week and starting Saturday feeling a little sick after eating (this usually happens about 4 days to a week or so-ish before my TOM starts- does this happen to anyone else???) I'm just waiting for it to come....and I hate waiting for it- I get super anxious, crampy, achy, irritable, and just TIRED. Luckily I'm usually able to hold back on taking my irritability on others- if I wasn't able to do that, I may not have many friends for a week or two haha.
I've never been super regular and I need to go to the doctor so I can get a new perscription for BC pills but I hate how they make me feel- Anyone else sensitive to BC pills and have found something that works?? I just feel horrible on them- I know the first couple of months on a new pill can be rough but I'm talking feeling SUPER crappy.... I've thought about asking my dr. for a low-hormone one and see if that helps/works ok. I was taking some BC that my friend had given me to get me through until I could get to the dr. and one thing I loved about them was that I seriously began to be able to KNOW when I was going to get my little visitor. On other kinds I've just been guessing/hoping it started before I was supposed to start a new pack. The down side was that I was getting some pretty bad stomach aches and my boobs were SOOOOOOOOO sore the ENTIRE time. OY Gotta love being a woman....
I don't have a lot more to report, just waiting for pay day and looking forward to a 4 day week with kids (Friday I have to be at work, but I can get work done and focus on IEPs).
Hope everyone has a great week!!!!
Until Next Time