Monday, September 17, 2012
I'm doing it. I'm starting over. After one year of neglecting my eating habits and exercise, I'm jumping back on the wellness wagon.
It is going to be hard. I've gained back 10 pounds, which frankly, given some of my crazy binges over the past few months, I'm grateful for. It could have been way more.
I've been walking a lot since June and it has helped. I bought myself a new pedometer and I've been trying to log 10,000 steps every day. But recently, I felt more had to be done. Even though my legs were getting noticeably toned, my midsection was not. I was eating whatever I wanted, even though I knew better. Bad habits, as everyone knows, die hard.
So I've restarted my low-carb eating plan. Officially, I started yesterday, but I gave myself a week to ease into the new pattern. It is tough. Tougher than I remember the last time. But already good things are happening. Between the headaches, groggy feeling and tiredness, I feel the glimmer of new energy trying to poke through. I've woken up for the last five days with a flatter stomach. It may be all in my mind right now, but I can feel tone and muscle back there, waiting for the fat to melt off. I weighed myself on Friday but couldn't resist doing it again today. Bad, I know! And guess what?? I lost two pounds!! So maybe it isn't all in my mind.
It is clear that carbs are not kind to my body. I learned that lesson before, but I decided to ignore it, because, hey - who wants to deprive themselves of those easy to obtain, delicious and yummy smelling foods? Pre-diabetics and fat people, that's who. People who can't control their crazy sugar lows and the depression/anger/frustration that follows, as they grow more unhealthy, more sluggish and bigger around the middle.
Anyway, it's a hard slow full of peril ahead. Regardless, I am full of confidence and optimism. I'm not going to think long term right now, much less for the Rest Of My Life. I'm not even going to think beyond 30 days - which is how long I've set my current goals.
I know I can do this. I'm hoping the Spark community will help with the bad days. And if I fail, I hope I have the strength to put my head down and start again. No matter how many times it takes.