Sunday, September 16, 2012
I've been away from Spark for the better part of a month. I did really well sticking to my plan at first, but the last couple of weeks have been a wee bit out of control :)
So what happened? We bought our first house, which didn't seem like an unmanageable task at first, but it has been. My perfectionist tendencies have totally been in the way; I want everything to be perfect as soon as humanly possible, which is an extremely stressful goal. We had a lot of work to do to update it and make it our own, and while we're nowhere close to being finished, we're able to slow down.
At the exact same time, I accepted an offer to go full-time at my day job. Combined with my online business, I've got ZERO free time. It may not have been the most sane idea I've ever had, but the extra money is welcome, and I'm finally getting holidays and vacation time. If it turns out to be a disaster, I can always go back.
My mother-in-law came up during moving week (for only the 2nd time since we've lived here, and the first time that the weather was nice enough to do anything), our 6-year wedding anniversary was two weeks after that, and my bestie from Arizona came the weekend after that. We ate out for three weeks straight. I'm not kidding - I didn't cook anything in our new house until we'd been here for 2 weeks already!
But now that things have settled down, I can finally breathe.......except that my pants are too tight to breathe too deeply! I'm starting this week back on affirmations and water drinking. I haven't managed to fit SparkLive in for a month, and I come back to find out that it's going away. Super sad. :( I'm still doing Lauren's Vitality Circle (when I'm not working).
I can already feel myself negative self-talking, saying that I'm not ready to give up the junk food again, since its been my source of comfort during these totally insane weeks. I wonder if I even know where my affirmations notebook is. Hmm...better go find it.