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Blog or journal about 1 thing that you are planning to work on this Fall Challenge.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Blog or journal about 1 thing that you are planning to work on this Fall Challenge. We will compare in Week 10 and see how far we have come


One thing I plan to work on is self sabotage. I get to a goal and do well them I overeat and ruin it. I try to exercise a little extra to help offset the calories but it never works. today I went over and I am 5 pounds heavier for it. I would like to think it will go away but it won't. When this happens no matter how hard I try it always stays with me for 1-2 weeks. I had just gotten rid of 7 pounds I gained from one bad meal. I could have an imbalance or could just be eating enough to throw my body off balance.

I am going to work on this. Some old feelings of failure come up when I see a success on my scale. It even bothers me when people compliment me on my weight loss. I am polite and say thank you. On the inside I am want to scream. I once thought those positive comments would be good. However they are not always.

One positive is I inspired a friend to lose. Our kids are best friends so we are not very close. She saw me at the first football game and kept staring saying how incredible I look. I was about to cry. She also told me of a gym near her house she might join and offered to work out with me. It is far and finances say I cannot afford it. Maybe I can get her in to running and we can do 5k's together? It was nice to meet someone I helped that I already care about.

By the next game she told me she did join the gym and got a trainer once a week. Good for her!! I told her she is doing great!! I can give compliments better than I take them. :)

I am open to any comments on my self sabotage. I am trying know that I know what it is! I will start bogging more. It seems to help me a lot! Once to twice a week at least.
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  • 2009-2016
    I truly get what you're saying. I feel "off" when people compliment me on my weight as well. We have to learn to be our own best friend. I think more frequent blogging will help you sort out your feelings on your body image, and more. Plus, I'm eager to read what you have to say. ~~ Barbara
    1585 days ago
    We all are probably our own worse critics.

    We are also in transition or changing from the inside out.

    Therefore, by planning ahead with balanced meals and bouts of exercise, we can minumize possible damage, when life events get in the way of our best intentions.

    I need to remind myself daily.

    It is not quite a good habit yet. Those take at least 21 consistent days.
    1585 days ago
    I am right there with you. I beat myself up better than anybody. :(
    1586 days ago
    Today could have been a bad day for me eating wise. I'm having horrible cravings and already made a plan of what I was going to get on the way home. I got a salad for lunch and there were egg shells in it so I got disgusted. I was doing so well, and I did my walk this morning...so why would I want to ruin it now????? I don't know. I just know I always sabotage myself in the end. Today, instead of going to the vending machine at my job, I came onto sparkpeople. I just keep going from page to page reading inspiring things until it starts to sink in that those are the people I want to be like. That I'm not happy sitting at my desk and my salad was gross, but that eating bad food will NOT make me feel better. I tend to push that fact way out of my mind the more I want something, but coming on here, and seeing blogs like this, remind me that other people were facing something similar and were able to find the strength to push past it. So, in honor of your strong will, I'm going to go home and have a healthy dinner and not give in to the sabotage. And in the future when you find yourself in one of these situations, try to immerse yourself in the stories and blogs on here. It brings me back to the mental place I want to be when I'm not trying to ruin all my previous efforts.
    1586 days ago
    1586 days ago
    Almost all of us do the self sabotage routine. We really need to commit to what it is we want...are those chips really worth it...or is that smaller size our focus. Bad enough we have people who think that the way to make us happy is to shove more food at us...we end up "eating" our dreams away. We have to make up our minds that we really want this. And we can't give into the 'all or nothing' BS. Don't JUMP off the track, just because you stumble a little...catch yourself and just keep moving forward.

    As for compliments...I don't understand that mindset.
    If I lost and no one said anything...I'd be pissed.
    If someone compliments you...enjoy it...you earned it...smile in the glory and keep moving forward.
    It beats the hell out of someone saying you put on a few pounds. emoticon

    1586 days ago
  • _BABE_
    Weight loss and the feelings surrounding it are complicated but I think identifying the enemy so to speak is half the battle. Recognizing that certain situations bring up certain feelings that trigger an old response. You have to look at yourself in a new way, you are now someone who is taking charge of your weight and you ARE NOT A FAILURE....but an inspiration.
    1586 days ago
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