Sunday, September 16, 2012
First, thanks to my amazing friends who read my blog and left encouragement, advice, and some tough love. I can't tell you how much I appreciate all the goodies, messages and sparkmail.
While I was at camp this weekend, I had tons of time to reflect on my journey and decide what it is that I want. It's so difficult to find the strength to continue on when you have to fight for every ounce lost. I know a lot of you know how that is. I'm glad to say, I've found my strength. Who knew it was at the TOP of a hill I'd been hiking all summer?!?
I decided to reflect on my life while we were hiking Saturday morning, and we got to the bottom of the hill that takes us back to camp. I stood there looking at this hill, and then I realized this hill represented the last of my journey. It's not a terribly long hill, but it's steep. Steep enough that you could lose your breath just by walking up it fast enough. My kids and husband were a little ways back, Katy LOVES to pick flowers, and I just up and started to run up this hill. Halfway up I felt like I had to stop. I have't run in a month, let alone uphill. But I heard my kids yelling, "keep going mommy! Way to go mommy!" They are all the strength I need. I made it to the top, out of breath for sure, but I made it. I didn't quit, and I didn't die! I realized at the top of the hill that I WILL finish this.
I'm going to shift my focus from losing weight, to REALLY toning my body. I not a fan of strength training, but I know I have to do it. Instead of doing cardio 6 days a week and strength training ZERO... I'm going to get back to running and going out for a REALLY GOOD run 3 days a week, and do some EXCELLENT strength training the other 3 days. I've always felt so bogged down when I was trying to do both on the same day. It always gave me a reason to skip one or the other (usually the ST). That's not to say that if I feel good, I can't do some cardio on an ST day.
As for the food, I know how to eat right, I just need to stick with food I plan. I do a meal plan for the week every Sunday. There is NO reason why I can't stay on plan, I've just been finding excuses not to. NO MORE! I also need to get my water flowing again. I was drinking almost a gallon a day, but lately, it's barely been 5-6 glasses.
Finally, I need to stop dwelling on the "goal weight" and focus on the fact that I'm SO much happier and healthier. I'm also pretty damn pleased with the way I look ; ) I need to remember this and know that if I'm doing the right things, sticking with exercise and good foods, it will all fall into place. I know I'll get into those size 8 jeans... that have been hanging on the back on my bedroom door for 2 YEARS... it just may not be this year. I also know that I'll have tons of support even if it takes me ANOTHER 2 years to get there.
Alright sparkpeeps, tomorrow is DAY 1... IT'S ON!!!