Last night, following a great deal of reflection, I made a difficult decision. I realized it was time for me to quit fighting and let go. As I am trying to put all the pieces together, I am wondering why is it that we make the simplest things the most difficult? Why create extra stress by creating obstacles where there is no need?
I realize challenges are necessary for growth, however, they can also be detrimental to your personal balance and well-being. For me, the act of letting something go is extremely difficult. I am a perfectionist, admittedly. Underlying is the belief that if I only work hard enough...
Back to last night. An incident occurred which was the proverbial last straw. The world is composed of different types of individuals, and that is a good thing. However, there are moments when rigidness creates tension. This is a common thing. I like to believe I am fairly open-minded. However, I have reached a point in my life where I do not like to be continuously discounted. I realize much of this comes from my past upbringing, and I have reached a point in my life where I want to live it without tip toeing around. Yes, I also have some of the people-pleasing tendencies. I don't like conflict, and I rather not make any waves. Obfiously that is changing. Last night, I took a stand, I let go.
Today, has been a day of closure. As is always the case (if I pay attention) I get exactly what I need. It comes from many sources, and they are often quite unexpected. Today, it was the
visualization practice on Spark Coach. The scene was set so that we were to visualize all of what I now interpret to be negatives in our hands and simply let them go: Forever. I apologize if I provided a misguided interpretation. It is just what comes from the feelings of memory.
The point being it really hit home!
I attempted to make a practice of this this morning. Later, as I was practicing my yoga, the same visualaztion came as I was completing the relaxation portion. I was realeasing any remnants of negative feelings through my breath.
I am at peace with a quiet mind. I see no negatives. What is is, and as in all things there are lessons to learn. I let go.
Namaste (I see your Body and Spirit, and I respec You).