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Day 147, I am a falling leaf.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

I had this thought this morning, because I have been drifting sideways for a few weeks on the scale, just sort of like a leaf in the wind. I knew that I was doing what I do, and eating what I eat, and it will not support more than a normal body weight. So it was apparent that the leaf would again begin to fall. And I no longer know exactly where it will rest when it stops falling. Since I am keeping records (for fun and motivation) I can see that what I eat and what I do is creating weight loss over time, I know I am not to the resting place yet.

So it was no surprise to see two pounds drop off this week rather suddenly. Hit a down draft there. It has been coming off in tenths for a while now, then there was the almost 3 week stall. I knew it wasn't going to last. I knew it was the stress of school starting again, and meeting 40 new students, and all the chaos that a new semester brings on the job. What I didn't know was the leaf would play catch up and put me into a new decade sort of abruptly. I will take it.
I started this with a goal of a normal BMI again. I am not wedded to the number any longer. I am a falling leaf, and it will rest at the place it needs to rest. I fully expect that to be in the normal BMI range, numbers don't lie. The truly important thing is how I was able to chase the granddaughter up the stairs at the hotel we stayed at for the TKD tournament she was in, and hear her gasping from making sure she won, while I was breathing deep but steady. Jogging in the sand on the beach and feeling light. Walking this morning with my dogs and deciding if it would be 3 miles or 5, then going for 5. Taking an easy pace because I was tired from the weekend.
Cool beans:
My resting heart rate in the 50's
Hearing that the ex-husband who left me when I was morbidly obese, (and blamed it on my size) who is morbidly obese himself now and just found out his triglicerides are in the 500's. Aw. (actually we are friends, but still..)
My legs are skinny :)
ALL my clothes either fit are or absurdly too big.
I never have heart burn any more.
I sleep like a rock most of the time
I can do a lot of yoga moves that used to be way out of reach.
I Love the way I feel before AND after a great healthy meal.
I am proud of what I eat, and the way I eat. AND what I don't choose for myself any more.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MOM4407 9/19/2012 4:10AM

    Love the leaf. Being with your grand daughter is priceless. Weight loss is more than a scale.

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MPLSLINDA 9/16/2012 4:25PM

    Love the falling leaf metaphor and your patience for drifting. Your attitude about everything this time is so completely different from the other times you've lost weight. There's both acceptance and determination, whereas before, there was only determination. True grit will get us where we're going, but acceptance is what will keep us there.

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