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Reunited and at peace...

Sunday, September 16, 2012

My dad passed away quietly yesterday morning at 5:30 AM. We had been able to move him to his hometown for rehab, and there were signs of improvement over the first few days. In the end, I think he was tired and ready to go. It's hard to know how much he understood his condition, but he would not have wanted to continue in this state for long. He may have known better than we did that he wouldn't be able to paint again and, for him, that spelled "goodbye" to this life. He had been so lonely without my mom who died two years ago.

I'll be in the States till the end of the month and will return to Germany to put my personal affairs in order. I'll likely need to return to the States shortly after that to take care of things here. Will keep you posted, but regular Sparking just isn't possible for now.

But YES, I'm taking care of me - and have some great support troups who remind me to do so.

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CYCLINGSANDY 10/18/2012 12:03PM

    I was blessed to be with my Dad as He went home to Jesus. It was hard, but peaceful too.

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SUNNY332 10/18/2012 7:04AM

    Michelle - So good to hear from you via my blog. I have missed you. I too loss my sweet Father this past summer on July 10th, I miss him a lot but he too was ready to go.

So glad you are back. Hugs, Sunny

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FRANNIEDID 10/14/2012 7:54AM

    I am so sorry Michelle, I did not know you had lost your Dad. I just read this and I feel bad that it took so long for me to see it. As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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JERSEYGIRL24 9/24/2012 4:32PM


So sorry to hear. My father passed away on September 13. Funeral was the 16th, same day as your father passed. So sorry I did not see this sooner. But my thoughts are with you, and maybe some day when you are ready for it we can "talk" some more because I think we are under extremely similar circumstances.

Peace and love,


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EATVEGAN 9/18/2012 11:23PM

    Of course you will miss your dad, but how good to know that we need not grieve as those who have no hope. You will see them both again and in a perfect place. They've gone ahead, but in no time at all, you will join them and the Savior around the throne. Dancing!

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JEZEBELSK 9/18/2012 10:30PM

    I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 9/18/2012 9:40PM

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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PRNCSCUP1-2FULL 9/18/2012 3:04PM

    Michelle-- My sympathies and love! Know you are never alone in your grief. I'm sure your dad let go and is at ultimate peace. Please don't go away! Check in when you can! Keeping you in a virtual hug!! Peace, Melissa

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KATHYKIM 9/18/2012 9:51AM

    I'm so sorry to hear of you dad's passing. You are in my thoughts and prayers.


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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 9/17/2012 3:57PM

    I know you have wonderful support groups through your faith and I'm very glad of that for you. We will miss you here on SparkPeople while you are gone, but it's clear you will be taking care of yourself and doing what is necessary.

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. It doesn't matter how old we are when our second parent dies, it still feels like we have become an "orphan" in a sense. You are right that he wouldn't have wanted to continue living in such a diminished state.

My mom often says she is ready to die any time now since my dad died (a year ago yesterday). It's an understandable feeling after being married to someone for such a long time. It's good to know that your dad is at peace now and no longer suffering.

I hope you come back to SparkPeople at some point in the future. I'll miss you, but clearly understand you need to be focused elsewhere right now.


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NEWNAC304 9/17/2012 6:13AM

    Michelle, my heart goes out to you. I was just thinking of you the other day, wondering how you were and how your dad was doing. I am so sorry for your loss. emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/17/2012 12:57AM

    My sincere condolences, Michelle, on losing your Dad. How comforting to know that he will be reunited with your mom even though his loss will be hard for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this very difficult time.
Blessings and hugs,

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SJG1953 9/17/2012 12:47AM

    Michelle, I too am saddened for your loss because I know how much the seperation hurts. I am also happy for your dad because I know he is in a wonderfully happy place with his Saviour and reunited with your mom. Many prayers for you my friend, for peace, comfort, and wisdom. Love and prayers, Shirley

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AEO_SUNSHINE 9/16/2012 11:31PM

    For those we love
Donít go away
They walk beside us every day.
Unseen, unheard but always there,
Still loved, still missed, but very dear

Sincere condolences - audrey

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TRYINGHARD1948 9/16/2012 10:41PM

    Blessings Michelle. So sorry to hear of your father 's passing. It will be a difficult time for the next while so do take care of yourself. Hugs.

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TANYA602 9/16/2012 9:17PM

    Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. What a beautiful picture. Big virtual hugs to you.

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CAROLYN0107 9/16/2012 8:44PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad's passing but glad you were in the States instead of in Germany. May the Lord help you through these next days, through getting things settled back in Germany and then moving back to the States. Lots of transitions but the Lord will be with you and give you HIS peace.

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RURAL3 9/16/2012 8:22PM

    sorry to hear about your dad but praise God for the reunion that is happening. emoticon

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ABETTERSOUL 9/16/2012 5:52PM

    Michelle, I am so sorry for your loss of your dad. My prayers are with you. emoticon

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MTNGRL 9/16/2012 5:47PM

    Michele, I know how difficult this is. He is at peace and that is a blessing. Saying prayers for you as you walk this difficult road. You know you are never alone.

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JANETELIZABETH1 9/16/2012 5:28PM

    Sincere condolences to you Michelle. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad but know he will be reunited with your mom and that is a comfort to your heart.
Praying for you at this time,
Love Janet

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BASEBALLMOM410 9/16/2012 4:46PM

    I'm so sorry Michelle. It's a comfort to know he's in a much better place, but I know the loss of a loved one is not easy. I will be thinking and praying for you and your family. emoticon

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VISUALLYRICS 9/16/2012 3:33PM

    Dearest Michelle,
( ( ( HUGE ) ) ) emoticon my friend...I am so sorry for your loss.
Prayer coming your way for direction, peace, rest and above all to know you are HELD by Abba.

love you, Laura emoticon

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RUNNERRACHEL 9/16/2012 2:45PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Your father's peace and being there for him were so important. Glad you are taking care of yourself. emoticon

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IFDEEVARUNS2 9/16/2012 2:14PM

    So sorry to hear about his. But glad he went peacefully. emoticon emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 9/16/2012 2:09PM


Michelle. I am so sorry for you that your dad is gone but I must tell you I feel great joy for him and your mom. Together they were a team and while it is so hard right now, I know you wanted them to continue as a team. Bless you and keep you safe and happy,

Gini emoticon

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CYALE76 9/16/2012 2:05PM

    So sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. emoticon

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NANAW12001 9/16/2012 2:03PM

  So sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

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WALKINGBYFAITH2 9/16/2012 1:56PM

    So sorry for your loss, Michelle. Knowing that he is reunited and at peace is a great comfort. May your memories sustain you during the difficult days and moments ahead. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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