Friday, September 14, 2012
Ok, I am gonna whine and play the worlds smallest fiddle. I sucked today...bad. really REALLY really bad. My flight just was shot to the boonies. Couldnt do anything right. My instructor is frustrated with me. Wanted to cry for embarrasement. Ground lesson instead of flying. Ya, I have a pilots license and I cant do a correct approach. I feel fricking worthless. Just the empty type of worthless, you know? Ate two apples extra today. Figures. Went to the gym and worked on the heavy bag for half an hour. After I took the gloves off I noticed blood has seeped through my wraps. Thats good. Huge bruise most likely on my shin from kicking (kickboxing), also good. Friction rubs on my forearms from elbowing it. Awesome. Coming home and realizing that after bleeding, sweating, barely being able to move the next day, blisters on palms, dragging yourself to the gym and trying to eat healthy that your still fat, not awesome. Hec, I am in college and cant even get anyone desperate enough to hit on me. I have been either A) the only female in class or B) one of two females in class for two years now, and the only thing that ever happened was one of the guys I kick around with asked my room mate out on a date. Oooh, figures. Now I get why the boss at the pool told me I was ugly after telling all the others they were hot. Great, now I am about to cry.