Friday, September 14, 2012
This morning I weigh 194 pounds less than my highest verified weight. I say it that way because there was a time when I did not know how much I weighed, and it was something more than 365 pounds. I have been reading the blog about the odds against us, the odds that say it is difficult to lose and maintain a loss. 100 pounds of my weight loss has been off of me since the 1980's decade. Since that time I have bounced around because I have always had the time when I was going to be FINISHED with my weight loss, and go on to eat a NORMAL diet. What that was has changed over the years as I learned more about nutrition, but it has always been designed to help me stay at whatever weight I felt was good at the time. I was at a normal BMI for several years from 2003 to 2006. Then I drifted back up when the stress in my life got bad, the worst weight I recorded since then was 210 in 2009. I found Spark people sometime after that, and began struggling to recommit to claiming NORMAL again. Well today I have to say this is no longer about NORMAL. This is not about losing weight any more, or stopping at a weight I like. This is about every day eating what I eat (a healthy nutritious diet) and doing what I do (exercise for FUN) I don't have a goal any longer. Of course there is a number on the ticker, but that is just a possible. I am not sure that is where my body will stop when I continue to eat what I eat, and do what I do. It doesn't matter any more. I actually love feeling hungry before a meal, and I don't mind making my plans to be sure I have something that feeds my body well on hand for when I get hungry. I can't say when this happened, but it feels right.