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Time to come clean..

Friday, September 14, 2012

Let me say, itís been a ride for me this whole getting fit thing. I have come from 534 pounds down to 305 which felt more than the word awesome could ever explain but as of late my weight has been creeping back up. I have not ridden my bike since the end of July and whatís a walk? My regaining is most definitely my fault, I am not doing my part whatsoever. I did try something a little different a couple months back and dropped a quick 20 but life has got me on my toes and its very hard for me to focus and that is not an excuse, I need to be able to stay on track regardless of lifeís bumps, the bumps ain't gonna stop coming... its life.

This morning upon waking up I don't know what hit me but $hits gotta stop, and now...

I have decided that I am going to try to start posting here again and feeling like some interaction with people that are like minded about dropping weight may be what I need so here I am... again. its not easy for me to post this, You know, that I am failing, but putting it out there worked for me in the past and I am hoping that it gets me back into some sort of rhythm again.

I will attempt to restart where I left off, I shall count calories and go for daily walks, the bike riding will come back I am sure but for now I want to start off slow and go for walks with my daughter.... this seems familiar somehow.. if you read my day 1 blog I started with walks with my other daughter who is now 7 years old! Either way, I am back and could use some like minded support and I am not to proud to ask for help so there it is.

Away we go...

Another beginning....

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    so glad you are back here . I have been offf and on here too i have had eye issues and irregular heart beat issues. just two weeks ago i took a fall and hurt my ribs i am heaviest i ever have been. But we both have to look forward not back if we have to start slow than so be it. we will get there we can do it and will.
    1371 days ago
    I am glad you posted here! I hope you will find your way back to where you were, and I know you can do it. We're all here for you!
    1372 days ago
    Happy to see a blog from you. I always loved your tough, no nonsense attitude.
    1378 days ago
    Tell me about it... since my surgery 5 months ago I am down about 70 pounds... 133 form my top weight--- I really feel good but I know those pounds are lurking around the corner trying to find me!!! Hang in there emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1379 days ago
  • v IONA72
    emoticon I know how you feel, we all struggle so you are not alone! Good for you making a new start, good luck on your journey, I look forward to reading more of your great blogs again!

    1380 days ago
    Welcome back.
    SP is base station for me. Gotta plug in and connect once a day. That's where the juice comes from.
    1380 days ago
    You can do this. I got motivated by an iphone app - Lose It - no kidding. Now I am in the grove and losing again. Doing a Sparta HIIT class twice a week - hard. Just do it. Took me a year to get my act together again.

    Ride that bike.
    1381 days ago
    You are not failing. You are human. Welcome back!
    1381 days ago
    YAY!!! ! Welcome back! I need to get back onto the wagon,too. I haven't been tracking for a long while. I was down low and thrilled with my muscles and small pants...then I let sugar and junk derail me. Now, I'm pregnant again and have already gained more weight than I care to think about...I need to get back to veggies and lean meats: the old standby that works great for me.
    1381 days ago
    So great to have you back! My recommendation Number ONE is to get to the store and stock up on healthy stuff. Make sure you eat regular meals and snacks and don't let yourself get too hungry. Once you get the sugar out of your system things will feel a LOT better. Spark on!

    1381 days ago
    I know what you mean. I have started over so many times, it's ridiculous. But I still start over. You can too. We all can. So what's one more do-over? Simple, right? I wish. But I'm starting over this week and you can start over with me!! We can do this. Life keeps knocking us down; but, we can just just get up and slap life back!! Let's go for it.

    1381 days ago
  • v KENDAL0525
    We all have bumps and get bruises. This is not an easy journey for anyone. Way to go on your initial weight loss though. That is AWESOME! You can do it. Just start out slow again and your momentum will come back.
    1381 days ago
    I've just started over again myself, and I'm so glad to see that it happens to all of us, even such inspirational people as yourself! I can't imagine accomplishing all that you have so far; you keep going! You've already conquered the hardest obstacles, just keep putting one foot in front of the other!
    There are so many of us that are encouraged by you...
    1381 days ago
  • v CATLADY52
    Happy to see you're back. Remember the baby steps you had to take???? Let's do them again. emoticon emoticon
    1381 days ago
    Awesome that your back!! I've been watching weight creep back on me for months now! I AM TAKING OFF THESE LBs I PUT BACK ON TOO!!! LET'S DO THIS!!
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    1381 days ago
    Hey...guess what I have been feeling the same. I finally posted my first vlog via my cell phone yesterday. I started thinking, if it used to work why wouldn't it now. I tried to track every so often and workout and I will drop some weight but it will come right back. I realized the whole social part of spark is what I was missing, that is what kept me going. Who would of thought?? Hope to see you around again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    1381 days ago
    Honesty and holding yourself accountable for you choices, both positive and negative, puts you far from failure, as does your determination to recommit. The road we're on is not an easy one, but at least it isn't a lonely one. It's OK to reach out and grab someone's hand along the way. And with daughters you have plenty to reason to get healthy and stay healthy. Best wishes.
    1381 days ago
    Nice to see a Blog from you again!
    Hasn't been a purrfect year here either - But we never give up.
    Here is to a new beginning!
    Happy Friday!

    (Besides that, your family had a baby - what is my excuse. Beer?)
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    1381 days ago
    It's only failure if you give up brother! I'm looking forward to reading your posts again!
    1381 days ago
    Welcome Back! I'm just getting back here myself... for about the 5th time. The way I see it though is that we all have choices to make, we can give it our best shot and hope for some great results or we can give up and do nothing which guarantees terrible results. You've always been an inspiration to everyone who reads your blog and I have no doubt that you will find the motivation you need to get back on track.
    1381 days ago
    Welcome back! I too have been MIA, and have not been following my plan, and have been watching the ole weight creep back up. Hang in there - we can both get back on track!!!
    1381 days ago
  • v TIFFANIE150
    Welcome back! So good to see you on here again, I've missed your blogs. Here are a couple of sites that I've been using lately in addition to Spark. You may already know about them, but nevertheless the more people you have to interact with, the better...
    1381 days ago
    First, congrats on the weight you were able to take off. 230 pounds or so is no small accomplishment.
    I also lost a bunch of weight (though not nearly as much as you), and unfortunately gained it all back and then some. No excuses here. I own it. And like your post, I kinda woke up one day and decided this $hit has got to stop. This time around I'm trying a different way, which (since May 30th) has been working well for me. Everyone is different, though and you need to find out what works for you, and then DO IT.
    I've got about 110-120 pounds to lose altogether, and have gotten rid of 35 of it so far. Like you, I know I can do it, because I've taken significant pounds off before (though my 82 pounds last time around pales in comparison to what you've accomplished).
    You can do this. You have the tools, and have flexed your weight loss skills. What I think we, and others here share is the need to REACH THE GOAL without stopping short, and then learn the process of maintenance so we don't "pack it on again".
    Good luck in finding what works for you, and don't give up. You are right. The $hits gotta stop.

    1381 days ago
    Going back to your first posts must be interesting. I am sure they will be motivating to you to relight your inner fire! Looking forward to seeing you back here more frequently and seeing your progress. emoticon emoticon
    1381 days ago
    Welcome back! Most, if not all of us, have been there done that. I hopped back on a few months ago and was scared and felt like a failure. Lesson learned - Spark friends are real and never there to judge you. Like a worn slipper - warm and cozy place where you always fit in.

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    1381 days ago
  • v PSMITH3841
    You know are not alone with the "not doing my part" thing and the failure part...ahh, sometimes failure is just the kick in the a$$ we need to get back on track! We know what we need to do....we know how to do it...there's nothing left but TO DO IT!!!!! Good luck my friend, I know you are up to the task! emoticon
    1381 days ago
    It's totally Ok to ask for help, especially when u realize there is a problem. I commend u for that. Remember, whether we have 5 lbs or 500 lbs to lose, we're all in this boat together! You know what to do, so get moving!
    1381 days ago
    You are NOT alone, you are NOT a failure, and you CAN do it, one small step at a time. I am so proud of your honesty and transparency, and it seems as if you have a game plan (which is a GREAT thing). Again, you are NOT alone, so, let's get sparkin ..... emoticon
    1381 days ago
    You are NOT alone, you are NOT a failure, and you CAN do it, one small step at a time. I am so proud of your honesty and transparency, and it seems as if you have a game plan (which is a GREAT thing). Again, you are NOT alone, so, let's get sparkin ..... emoticon
    1381 days ago
  • v KNH771
    Hey... Everyone's been there. It's good to see you back. One foot in front of the other!
    1381 days ago
  • v DDOORN
    Hey Tony, SUPER to hear from you...crawling back is not easy...know that you have LOTS of company and support here...! Also...there is a SparkTeam filled with Masters of the Long Haul...those who have lost and kept it off, maintaining for YEARS & YEARS! Lots of wisdom here, even for those of us like myself who stumble, fall and have not yet reached our goal:


    Best to you and looking forward to hearing more about your climb back! :-)

    1381 days ago
  • v BILL60
    It's great to unload, but even greater to overcome tough obstacles. Get on down and give me "20" for slacking. Welcome back and hang tough.
    1381 days ago
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  • v NATALIE1964 good day, then one good week, and all this turns into a month , then and you're back on track. I 'm doing exactly that, lost 50 ( that I'd already lost and somehow found again :/ ) but hey, each fallback has it's lesson. Mine was, never give up. Looks like you already know that ! ;-) keep on keeping on .
    1381 days ago
    Welcome back! If you had the determination and drive to lose over 200 lbs, there is no reason why you can't lose more. Don't think of yourself as a failure. You've just had to take a small step back.

    I think starting with small steps again is an excellent idea. It will snowball, and you'll be on a roll again in no time!
    1382 days ago
    "You know, that I am failing, but putting it out there worked for me in the past and I am hoping that it gets me back into some sort of rhythm again."

    I don't feel that you are failing. It's more like whatever you were doing isn't giving you the result that you want, so it's time to change the plan. The only time you fail is when you don't recognize the need to change (and so you don't).

    You have plenty of company in the mix. If you want a group hug or a swift hop in the shorts, we are here with you.

    Now gather your green tea, your steel cut oats and start your journey anew!!

    1382 days ago
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