Thursday, September 13, 2012
Right now, I am sicker than a dog (have no idea how that phrase was started) and I caused it all by myself.
It never ceases to amaze me after all the information I have learned about Paleo, after 2 years of having the lapband, and after losing almost 100 pounds that I still mess up big time every once in awhile.
It all started with just 1 bite.....
You see I am a food addict and I'm addicted to sugar. Food is my drug of choice and has been for most of my life. All it takes for me to fall off the wagon is just one bite. I know this and do very well most of the time, but if I ignore the rules about eating excess fat, sugar, and salt, then I'm toast. pardon the pun.
It all started with just 1 bite.....
I had just spoken to a friend yesterday afternoon and told her it was ok to eat a little extra carbs when her body needed them for energy. I meant healthy carbs, of course. Because I know better. Yeah, right.
After we finished our conversation, it was dinner time and I hadn't prepared anything for me to eat. I didn't even have any leftovers. My DH did have some canned salmon patties that I had prepared for him and I thought because it was mostly prepared with the foods I allow myself, I would eat just 1 pattie. (He loves canned over fresh, go figure and I haven't gotten him to change yet).
It all started with just 1 bite....
The only difference in the way I cook it for him and myself is that I put bread crumbs in his and I use fresh salmon for mine. For me, I try to never eat bread or wheat or any grains for that matter, and I hardly ever eat anything out of a can, but I thought just a little would be ok. It couldn't be that bad, right?
Just that one bite threw me into a tail spin. First, it was the canned salmon and after I ate it, all I could taste was the salt. It felt as if someone had opened a box of salt and poured it directly into my mouth. I mean it was nasty.
Then this morning, I was still off my usual plan and began to get hungry before my normal lunch time so I decided to eat a little more packaged salmon and had some light mayo.
What the H***!! Why did I do that AGAIN??? Yuck!! the salt--I never knew that stuff had so much salt in it before I quit eating packages and cans.
After I went Primal/Paleo last year and started eating as fresh as possible, I got all that junk out of my system and now even though it made me sick to taste the salt the first time, I ate it anyway! AGAIN!
Then I was really hungry--the cravings were full force at that point and I ate some snackwell cookies my husband has for his snack stash! Double yuck!
Then, I ate a carmel apple that DH had left in the kitchen....what a sugar rush that was. Then, I ate 3 more slices of carmel that i had left over that were from a kit to be used for more carmel apples.
Then I ate some canned soup and canned corn--oh yeah, the whole can of both!
Now I am so sick and feel so dejected about the whole thing. I have managed, with just 1 bite, to completely ruin about a week's worth of progress plus now I have to get all of this sugar out of my system again which will take a while to do.
My body feels like I have just shot sugar and salt straight up into my veins and I feel like I could drink a lake of water. Plus now I am bloated and swollen.
MY TAKE HOME LESSON:
I just can't take 1 bite....it doesn't work that way for me. Maybe other people can eat in moderation but I am a food addict and I must abstain completely. Right now I am kicking myself in the butt for sure. But right after I post this blog, I am going to plan my grocery list and get to the store.
I'll be back on track starting right now.
It will take a few days or weeks to get the sugar out, but I will. You see I have to because this way of eating makes me sick. I don't like the way this type of food makes me feel now. I don't like eating from cans and packages. Eating real food is the only way to feed my body now--no wonder our country is killing itself. It's what most of Americans eat: The Standard American Diet (SAD).
I will probably mess up now and then because I'm not perfect, and there are situations that we can't control sometimes, but I will get right back on track. Why?
It's because I can't stand the taste of salt and sugar anymore! My body can't stand it! .....it has more to do with that then losing weight for me at this point.
Now I will pick myself back up and start again. And next time I am tempted to eat something that is not in my plan, I will remember what happened with just 1 bite.
I think I will have a new motto now, when in doubt, don't eat it.
I will feel better tomorrow....