The weight gain set back has taught me that sometimes things that I can't control shouldn't cause me to give up. I am rededicating myself to Chalean extreme. I will do it as many as my body allows me to. I will not allow it to stop me from reaching my weight loss. I may have to start and stop but that don't mean I can't do it. It just means I have to pace myself and try again. I can do this. I can make progress again. The journey is not over until I choose it to be. I will do all in my power to have the surgery in my grasp. I appreciate the support my spark friends give me. I just want to make this work for the long haul. I have the support of my doctors and that is more than enough for me. I will run the race until all the weight comes off. I will eat the way I should not because I have to but because I want to and that it means to me to drop the 50 lbs and then some to get the weight off. I am worth more than I realize. I am worth it. I can do this and succeed. I want to make all my doctors happy and proud of me. I want to be able to say I did it! This is more than just about my weight. It's about a new way of life. I will not give up and I won't quit!