Tuesday, September 11, 2012
I've had an attitude problem since I was about 7 years old. I hate being told what to do, especially if whatever you want me to do conflicts with previously blocked out as my time. This attitude problem usually gets me in hot water at least once a semester and I'm estimating that will happen sometime in the next week. But that's not the attitude I'm talking about today.
I've been trying to pull myself together since the new year and while weight has a large piece of the pie, one of the bigger missions is to be more active and get out of the lab. I've been boxing for about a month now, lost barely two pounds, and about 3 inches combined circumference of my entire body. I feel a lot better but all my clothes fit exactly the same. The funny thing? I've been having people comment that I'm loosing weight. The really funny thing? I weigh 5-10bs more now than the last time I saw these people. Before anyone says anything about muscle weighing more than fat, I guarantee that we are not at that point yet.
My theory: sunshine, sleep, and style. Every time I've received a compliment for my size this year has been shortly after returning from a vacation involving some seriously beach time and by extension a really nice tan (yes, I wore sunscreen, just happens okay?). I had a chance to catch up on some of my sleep so I'm more awake, coherent, and not hating life as much. Lastly, it was all times that I ditched my ratty t-shirts and jeans for more flattering clothes that I felt good in.
It makes me feel really odd accepting compliments for "loosing weight" when I definitely haven't. I smile and say thank you, because even I can't always have an attitude problem and I know people are trying to be nice. Just goes to show how your outlook can change things.