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New Attitude


Tuesday, September 11, 2012

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(Yes, I have to post the song, because why should I be the only one with Patti stuck in my head?)

I am so sick of beating myself up about my little slippin' and backslidin' and stuff. My first thought was to just give up on this "dieting" thing and just be fat and find some way to accept myself as I am, because I can't do this, I can't seem to get it up to work out, I can't do it RIGHT, I can't blah blah lies blah blah negative self-talk blah blah mean things blah blah I suck blah blah blah blah BLAH.

I'm SICK of it. I'm not doing this to myself anymore. I am not telling myself I am a failure, because there IS NO FINISH LINE HERE. This isn't some short-term thing I need to do RIGHT or PERFECTLY or it means I LOST and FAILED.

This is a LIFESTYLE CHANGE and change is PAINFUL and SLOW for me, and it's not going to be an automatic overnight thing where I wake up craving Kale and hating chocolate cake.

I'm dusting myself off again, not beating myself up for needing to pick myself back up AGAIN, and I'm taking all kinds of accusatory tone out of the word "again". I'm glad I get so many chances, it means I'm still alive.

YAY! I'm dusting myself off again! Yay! I have another chance to get healthier! Yay! I know positive habits build on smaller positive habits! Yay! I can start with small small changes!! Yay!! I don't have to be perfect, I just have to be nice to myself, drink a lot of water, move my body -- maybe by dancing -- and I get to eat really wholesome tasty things instead of chemical laden crap that doesn't nourish me! YAY! Yay! I did 10 squats at the copier and I'm going to jump rope for five embarassingly silly sweaty minutes!

My choice to change my lifestyle is NOT because I suck and I'm fat and therefore must be punished. My choice to change my lifestyle is because I DESERVE TO BE HEALTHY and STRONG so I can FULLY live my life without hindrance! I WANT more LIFE!

LIFE is not found in sweet treats that make me moan with joy...although they are a LOVELY part of life, they don't REPLACE what it is I truly WANT. Which is MORE LIFE. More exploring, more performing, more creating, more laughing, more travelling, more meals outside without worrying about being sleevless or sweaty -- just MORE LIFE.

I want more life, so I want to eat more life- supporting food. I want to move more so my body can do more. It's as simple as that. It's all about attitude.
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MEDDYPEDDY 9/11/2012 11:33PM

    Oh, I agree - it is really sickening to pick oneself up over and over... I am trying to change inte thinking that I did not fall - I had an experience. And the moment I am not eating is another experience... and I want to collect the sort of experiences that will enable me to do fun things in the future - like dancing "halling" (scandinavian folkdance...)

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LIBELULITA 9/11/2012 3:42PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon for giving yourself a good sensible talking to. You have spoken to yourself like a true friend,

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WERNERETTE 9/11/2012 2:12PM

    This a great examply of choosing your thoughts and determining your own course of action, too many people let themselves wallow, I know I did for a long time, but I've come to realize that I can change my perspective, and I can choose to be happy, every day! It's all in how you look at things!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 9/11/2012 1:07PM

    Go on girl!! emoticon

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VICKLET31 9/11/2012 12:48PM

    Ok, I started out in the first paragraph wanting to tell you that this isn't a diet, but as I read I realized that duhm you know that. I LOVE this blog and I LOVE your attitude. You CAN do this girl. Keep on with that attitude. I know some days it's really hard and I know I lose faith a lot too, but keep on going and no matter what, you WILL be healtheir in the long run!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!

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