"It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see."
-Henry David Thoreau
I am not anxious about aging. My best days are not behind me; they are ahead. I truly believe that life is what you make it, or rather, life is how you perceive it. I feel like I am getting way better with age. I finally have the independence AND the wisdom to enjoy it. I have learned (and will continue to learn) who and what needs to be in my life. Challenges present learning opportunities--even when the challenges really suck--instead of road blocks. I have learned so much about myself over the past couple of years. Today I start my 34th year of life, and I plan on it being the best year yet.
Last night, I got done working at 11 p.m. and then I popped in a yoga DVD. I finished just after midnight, ringing in my birthday with an excellent yoga session. While I was practicing, I thought about what I would like the next year to bring. I made some promises to myself for the next year.
I promise that I will never apologize for being who I am. I have struggled throughout my life with not feeling like I'm good enough, whether it be centered around my body or my achievements. Now I know I am just fine the way I am, and no one will ever make me apologize for or feel bad about being myself.
I will not berate my body. I will embrace the fact that I have a body that can move freely and can be challenged. I am not trying to get my body to look a certain way, I am trying to get my body to function a certain way. If my body is functioning in the highest health that can be achieved, then it does not matter what my current weight is. This slow process of weight loss will be most beneficial in the long run. In the meantime, I will live my life to the fullest without worrying about the number on the scale. It is guaranteed to go down eventually if I keep working hard.
I promise to make each day the best it can be. This means that I fully enjoy the good days, and keep in mind that a bad day is temporary.
Today I will celebrate my birthday by treating myself to a massage, and then lunch with mom, and then spend the evening with my Jiu Jitsu pals. I am having a healthful start to this "new year." The best part about it is, I ENJOY being healthful and the choices that lead to healthful living come naturally now. Binge eating and sitting around are now unnatural to me and rejected by my body and mind. I am the healthiest I have ever been in my life, and will only keep improving.
I wish a most joyful day to you, too!
My motto this year:
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