Vanity or Health?
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
It's always nice to get compliments. With 44 pounds gone, I am hearing it often, "Have you lost weight?" or "You look fabulous." or "You look so much younger." I enjoy the compliments, but I have to remind myself---that's not why I'm doing this program.
I am on program because I am prediabetic and no matter what my blood sugar reading is, I will always be prediabetic. I've succeeded in bringing my A1C to a relatively normal 5.7--down from 6.2. However, I now know that I will always have to be vigilant.
My choices are 1) stay on program, maintain a healthy diet and exercise and avoid diabetes; OR 2) go back to my sedentary ways, eat fattening food, regain the weight, become diabetic and then get back on program, maintain a healthy diet and exercise.
Believe me, I'm enjoying the weight loss from a vanity point. For the first time in years, I've tucked in my shirt and am wearing a belt around my waist. A belt because I need to keep my pants from gapping. It's fun to hear the compliments from family, colleagues, co-workers and friends. But, I have to remember how alarmed I was to learn I was prediabetic and how another part of my lab results revealed I had a "fatty liver." Huh? What's that?!? Yikes!
I want to live long enough to see my grandson grow up, finish school and get married. I'm a relatively young grandmother, so if he starts a family, I might even be around to become an active great-grandmother. When my grandson is 30, I will be 77. That's doable. I don't want him visiting me in a nursing home. I want to be driving, traveling and living life. That's what I want for myself and it will be challenging to do that if I become diabetic and at higher risk for all kinds of health complications.
Yes, it's nice to be in a smaller size, but I haven't erased my risk factors for diabetes. I still have a tire around my waist that needs to go. My journey is not done. Somehow, I need to keep chipping away at the last 22 pounds. My goal is to lose 12 more by the end of the year. Even if I only lose 5-10 more by December, I'm that much closer to goal. Anything I can do is better than standing still or moving backward.
Onward and downward.