Monday, September 10, 2012
I just joined today, and have been on my mission to drop over 100 pounds for 2 weeks now. Everyday is hard and I am determined NOT TO FAIL! An issue for me is that I have no one to talk to about my struggles; I don't know anyone personally who can understand how I feel about myself or has been in my position. I have a 6 year old daughter that I have to set a good example for, and be here for in 10 years time. There is no other alternative at this point in my life than to get healthy. I am embarassed for people I haven't seen in years to see me now, I feel like I look ridiculous and the way I feel inside doesn't match the outside. I deprive myself of fun things for fear of not being able to fit in a seat, or physically able to participate or even for people to look at me and think "she's pretty, but she'd be even prettier if she wasn't fat". I'm tired of being in my own personal prison! I realize it took me years to get this size and it will take significant time to take the weight off, but in the interm, I need support, and to be able to help support others as well!