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Caught in the Doldrums

Monday, September 10, 2012

This happens every so often, usually when I skip a week of working out for something else. In this case, I spent weeknights working feverishly on a creative pursuit that came together with a brilliant bit of speed. I spent more time in front of the computer typing than I did in the Y biking, though it was an off week for classes. Neither did going dancing at our 20 minute intro class (free) seem at all appealing and I pulled out of the appointment. Meh.

The old war of loathing and dislike is back. It upsets me that I can workout so much without any changes; if anything, my thighs are squishier and larger than they were. I try to tell myself this is normal and it's just a point of muscles building up because I do a lot of lower body exercises (elliptical, walking, biking, and especially cycling around in the pool during aquafit) but nothing else is changing. I look like a darned Reubens.

My beau's sister posted a photo from late May from me behind. By this point I'd been very active. I was really repulsed by what I saw, and it just dims any lustre on trying harder or even wanting to shop at all for a ballgown.

I feel like I'm the size of Snufflufagus. :(

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    We'll help you snap out of those doldrums on Saturday. :-)
    2017 days ago
    *hugs* I'm sorry you're having a hard time! Remember, you didn't gain everything in a short period of time, it's not going to go away in a short period of time, but it WILL go away eventuall! KEEP PUSHING!
    2019 days ago
    You know Astalanya, I have felt the very same way. No matter how much I exercise, my body doesn't seem to change. I have noticed smaller sizes, but the problem spots are just that problem spots. I do know that my stamina is a lot better so something is working. I also know that we are our own worst critics. Don't be so hard on your self. I will bet you are going to look just beautiful in that Ball Gown! emoticon
    2019 days ago
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