Saturday, September 08, 2012
I have had a love/hate relationship with my scale for years. Several years back I got so frustrated with the scale I threw it out. Only helped me feel better for awhile but didn't help me change any habits.
Then I went and bought another scale so the love/hate relationshiip could continue. Most weeeks it was ignored - totally - and I thought I was getting my revenge by letting it gather dust. But it would get me back whenever I dared step on it by showing me my weight hadn't magically become lower. I'm sure it would giggle behind the 200 figure when I discovered I had gained AGAIN.
Well anyway back in March 2012 I started Spark People and I learned over time that the scale is just a tool. It does not delight in telling me that I have lost just .1 lbs or smirk behind the needle if I have GAINED. No it just quietly sits there and when I decide to measure my weight in one particular point in time it will give me some numbers. That's it. That's all it measures. My one particular weight in one particular point in time.
The scale does not measure my level of energy. Nor can it clap when I re-discover the joy of physical activity.
Can you remember back to when you were young and it was all day play or at least a good part of the day was spent in physical movement such as swimming, baseball, biking, playing tag or any other running games in the summer. In the winter it was ice skating, coasting or snowshoeing.
I am starting to find that same joy by moving more. I feel younger, more alive, more energetic.
I am finding some major contentment when I put away all my larger size clothes because now they are way too big.
Today I was out riding my bike and I went 4km and half of the trip was uphill. :::::))))))) WOW.
The scale cannot measure how much more confident I feel. I have recently went out and joined a couple of community groups which needed volunteers, this is a hugh step for me.
What is going on....
It is that I am learning to treat my body with respect. I am learning to feed it proper nutrition.
I am learning to move as I was created to do. I am learning to value myself as I should be valued.
The rewards to this are many... more energy, contentment, happiness, confidence,
I have learned that the scale is not out to get me. It is only a tool. And that tool tells me these days that I do weigh less in any particular moment of time than I did six months ago. But it does not matter so much anymore.