Saturday, September 08, 2012
So I've been away from sparkpeople for a few months, and sooooooo much has happened. I tried (I really did) to be okay with everything that happened but unfortunately was not able to get past the years of lying... I truly do love my husband Marcus, but I have left him. I have found someone that makes me truly happy. An old friend moved back to town and he is everything I have ever wanted. Treats me like a queen, loves me AND actually respects me. We have a lot in common. Everyone I know (that doesn't think I'm a horrible person and in the wrong) says they can't believe how happy I am and how much of a better attitude I have. After months (even years) of a fake smile i finally have a real one :)
Tom and I had a blast this summer :) We went to several concerts 4 in July alone including Iron Maiden! He took me for my first ever float trip, and now I'm hooked. Silverwood (a theme park) was also something we did. We went camping and just had an all around fantastic summer. I will post some pictures of the concerts and other stuff we did sometime. I consider myself to be one of the luckiest girls ever to have found someone so amazing. We have both been through a lot of crap in our lives and we both deserve some happiness.
Somehow I manged to get my self fired from my job at Lincoln's. I called in sick one weekend and *poof* they fired me. Whatever I don't care. Got a new job (way less stress and MUCH better work environment) 2 days after being fired. Like they say one door closes another one opens. I'm layed off for the winter but still have a job this spring, I think I can handle that. Still doing my high school diploma to try and better my self further and hope to get the course half way completed this winter.
Now, onto the good stuff... After a summer of fast food, gas station food, restaurant food, and a lot of beer, I have STILL managed to keep the weight off. How I don't know. I'm in a size 10 jeans from a 22 and in a medium t-shirt from a 2x. I still feel very fat especially when I look at myself in the mirror, but the smaller clothes do make me feel better about myself. After everything I've been through in the last year I have very low self-esteem. That is something I'm working on, and think I can get better eventually. Tom helps... A LOT :)
I had an absolutely amazing summer, but I am happy it's fall. With fall comes football and fantasy football... Oh, and darts! Now I'm off to paint my nails Bronco's colors lol.
Big hugs from Montana :)