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WOW! What a summer...

Saturday, September 08, 2012

So I've been away from sparkpeople for a few months, and sooooooo much has happened. I tried (I really did) to be okay with everything that happened but unfortunately was not able to get past the years of lying... I truly do love my husband Marcus, but I have left him. I have found someone that makes me truly happy. An old friend moved back to town and he is everything I have ever wanted. Treats me like a queen, loves me AND actually respects me. We have a lot in common. Everyone I know (that doesn't think I'm a horrible person and in the wrong) says they can't believe how happy I am and how much of a better attitude I have. After months (even years) of a fake smile i finally have a real one :)

Tom and I had a blast this summer :) We went to several concerts 4 in July alone including Iron Maiden! He took me for my first ever float trip, and now I'm hooked. Silverwood (a theme park) was also something we did. We went camping and just had an all around fantastic summer. I will post some pictures of the concerts and other stuff we did sometime. I consider myself to be one of the luckiest girls ever to have found someone so amazing. We have both been through a lot of crap in our lives and we both deserve some happiness.

Somehow I manged to get my self fired from my job at Lincoln's. I called in sick one weekend and *poof* they fired me. Whatever I don't care. Got a new job (way less stress and MUCH better work environment) 2 days after being fired. Like they say one door closes another one opens. I'm layed off for the winter but still have a job this spring, I think I can handle that. Still doing my high school diploma to try and better my self further and hope to get the course half way completed this winter.

Now, onto the good stuff... After a summer of fast food, gas station food, restaurant food, and a lot of beer, I have STILL managed to keep the weight off. How I don't know. I'm in a size 10 jeans from a 22 and in a medium t-shirt from a 2x. I still feel very fat especially when I look at myself in the mirror, but the smaller clothes do make me feel better about myself. After everything I've been through in the last year I have very low self-esteem. That is something I'm working on, and think I can get better eventually. Tom helps... A LOT :)

I had an absolutely amazing summer, but I am happy it's fall. With fall comes football and fantasy football... Oh, and darts! Now I'm off to paint my nails Bronco's colors lol.

Big hugs from Montana :)
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    ~HUGE HUGS~ Who would dare even think about not coming to Spark People out of laziness? LOL Hey my cammo pants from last hunting season are falling off me and I had to take up two inches in the belt to make them stay on but just popped in here today for the first time in forever and apparently even with all the weirdness it's not been that much of a summer food and fat free for all in either of our worlds! Who'd have thought? I really thought I'd taken worse care of myself this summer. You look AMAZING girl and I miss you much! Congrats on everything too, you really really are a beautiful woman and I just hope that you see it now that your smile is there all the time with Tom and little one to come. I love you! Funny how we live in the same little town and when it get to missing you I can always seem to come here and find something I hadn't read before t hat you've left. :O)
    1941 days ago
    Thanks! Honestly I haven't come to my spark page because of laziness and I have been super busy. Marcus and I get along good even on the same dart and fantasy football league. We both want to remain friends, and have to because of our dogs lol. They are our kids :) I need to get some pictures of me, I'm kind of camera shy haha.
    2018 days ago
    I'm glad that you are in a good place now. It's always upsetting when a marriage doesn't work out, but it sounds like yours put you to the torture test. And you still managed to lose a bunch of weight!!!

    Now, a suggestion -- post some new pictures of yourself and get rid of the ones with Marcus in them. That should make coming to your Spark Page easier for you and maybe even have a bit of closure.

    Keep up the good work with Spark.


    2019 days ago
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