Friday, September 07, 2012
I started the 8 week 5k program on sparkpeople today. I have never been a runner. I have definitely tried to run in the past, along with various training program, but was quickly discouraged because I never seemed to 'get better' or 'get faster'. In fact, running or even jogging made me feel extremely nauseous.
So today I started a new program. It starts out simple enough. I walked for 4 minutes and ran for 1. I did that 6 times total. Even though it was really scary for me to get on the tredmill and run, i still did it. No nausea. Every time the timer came down to run, I could feel my heart jump with nerves. 'Am I going to make it? Can I do this? What the heck am I doing?' But I did it! I got through the whole 1st day. So now I am happy and feeling like this time is different.
I am hoping I can run for so many reasons. I want to run with my husband. I want to run with my cohort mates. I really want to do a marathon or half marathon for a cause just to know what that's like. I want to run for my future. I want to run to stay healthy. I want to run because when I have kids, I don't want them to be able to out run me. I want to run in cute clothes. I want to run because I remember the joy it brought me as a little kid and I want to see if I can feel like that again.
I really want this. I want it bad. So I guess I have to make it happen. 1 day at a time :)