Friday, September 07, 2012
I decided to check in on my friend feed and found MOMCATT's entry for today. In it she was talking about making changes. We are both going through the job search ordeal. One of the things she said was she was going to ask 2 ladies she's knows for mentoring. She was going to bite the bullet and do it.
That really hit home. Literally. This morning at breakfast, my husband said 'so are we still on for the barbecue tomorrow?' I've been dreading this question all week.
The BBQ is at a coworker of his' place. I won't know anyone there except Joe. I really, really, really, REALLY don't want to go because - well, first off, everyone I meet will say 'so what do you do?'
Then there is the fact that I feel like I look like an old hag. Since I'm not bringing in any money, I've pretty much not felt like I could spend any on anything trivial like - a hair cut or manicure or clothes that fit. I haven't had my hair done since before our June wedding. My lupus does a weird thing with my nails and makes them split along the length so I would have an acrylic overlay to keep them - you know - ON my fingers. And none of the clothes I have that fit are not stained with paint or garden dirt.
Our soon to be neighbors are going to be there too. We met them once before the wedding. The dentist and his glamazon wife. (Very nice - but VERY put together.)
Anyway - so with all this running through my mind, I did the only thing any rational (ahem) thinking woman would do. I hedged.
"Well, do you want to go?" I asked all the while thinking (say no, say we have too much to do, say you'd rather spend the day alone with me...)
And then he said it: ' I thought it would be a great way for you to network.'
So now I REALLY want to go to a big splashy party where I will know no one in dirty jeans, ratty hair, and raggedy nails AND ask someone to hire me. Yes - they'll snap me up in a minute.
And then I read MOMCATT's blog. I'm paraphrasing, but she said it was foolish of her not to ask people who are there and willing to help to - well - help. And she's right. I'm on SP asking strangers for help on a daily basis. It is no different.
And after all Joe has done for me, I need to suck it up and get over it and go.
Besides, we can always leave early....