Friday, September 07, 2012
Well, I can't believe it's been this long since I blogged. Fortunately, it's not for all the wrong reasons, which would certainly have been the case in the past. I have just been busy living life! My healthy habits are still intact and I'm feeling stronger everyday. I have posted a recent pic and I'm actually starting to see the changes myself (takes so long, doesn't it?) and the NSVs are happening almost daily. So let me get you caught up on my crazy life!
WORK: I was chosen to move to another Division to participate in the Development of the State Child Welfare Information System (called NCFAST). Very cool - very much an honor - AND I get a raise. Plus, they asked me to be the Team Lead. I have been in Child Welfare for 21 years, but now my job title will be BUSINESS ANALYST with the Division of Information and Resource Management for the State. Pretty cool, huh? Makes me sound all smart and everything... Will be moving to a new office just off I-440 on Glenwood Avenue which is a closer drive to home (minutes). It is also near a Greenway so I can walk during lunch!
FAMILY: My brother is doing well overall. He has been in SC visiting family this week which has been a good break for us both. He has been with me for 6 months and I don't think I realized how much stress just being with him daily is. I love having him with me, but it is hard to constantly be aware of the needs of another person, especially one with a terminal illness. I am, again, so grateful to God that I started taking care of myself when I did - or I could not have been there for my brother. I know it will get harder, but I also know I'm getting stronger and I can do what's needed. The kids are doing well.. having adult issues like adult kids do.. but nothing major for now (knock on wood).
FITNESS: I am down to 279.6 which is an overall loss of 75.4 pounds. I continue to eat mostly protein with few carbs and my challenge lately has been more about eating ENOUGH. Since I don't rely on food like I used to, I sometimes forget to eat! (Holy cow - who are you and what have you done with Tracey!) I do fitness on most days, with at least 4-5 days of an hour workout. I really don't feel right when I miss it, but I also have learned not to panic if things are going on and I can't do my solid one hour workout. I just try to factor in more walking or movement throughout the day. Last night I did a Body Pump (Les Mills) class. The last time I tried the Body Pump was back in March. It was AWFUL. I couldn't do the lunges or squats because my knees hurt too bad. I couldn't do any of the things that involved being on your knees. The next day I hurt so bad I could hardly move. LAST NIGHT? I did the squats, did the lunges, did the PUSH UPS - did the whole workout! And today? A little soreness, but not much at all. Loving how this feels!!
DATING: Hmmm... this has been the most stressful area of my life. I actually have been seeing someone for a couple of months and he has advised me that he is IN LOVE. Oh, crap... and I like him a lot, but there are issues and I know it is not destined to be. But I've had a hard time letting that go. I am also seeing my cop (he's more for fun) and there's this 28 year old that is pursuing me relentlessly (lol), but I've met this other guy who really seems to have it all together and I think I'll focus more on him. I still have a hard time being honest about things I feel... both with the guys I'm seeing AND with myself. It's weird... Never thought I'd say that I have too MANY men in my life... but that seems to be the case most of the time. Oh, well... I AM IN CONTROL. That's the important thing... and it's fun...
So anyways, that's the latest in the crazy life of Rose! Thanks to all of you who continue to reach out to me and make sure I'm ok. It means the world to me!
I GOT THIS.