Friday, September 07, 2012
I just wanted to update on how I've been doing, I still haven't drank any pop/soda of any kind and I've had at least 5 cups of water a day. It is shocking to me how easy this has become.... going from almost no water at all to that much is a great accomplishment for me. I am on the other hand feeling a bit nervous about being released from the doctor this month and knowing that we will now be allowed to try again for another baby. After back to back miscarriages last year I am finding it extremely hard to have hope of a normal pregnancy. I know that we will never know unless we try which is part of what kills me the most, but at least now I know I'm doing what I need to be doing to keep my health good and maybe that will play an important role in things being different next time. I don't want to give up but I also don't want to face another molar pregnancy and the chance of getting cancer. All of this is spinning around my mind constantly and I hate those negative what ifs of life. but as long as we wait we will never ever know. I just have to trust what God has planned and take it from there.