I did not realize it had been so long since my last blog. It has been over a year according to my blog page. So I guess what I am going to do is try to catch up on what has been going on. It is mostly one crap storm after another. In December of 2010 my doctor who I was absolutley happy with decided to leave the clinic he was working in. He never even said good-bye. When I asked him if he was leaving, he lied and said he would see me after the New Year. Well like I said that was in 2010. I have NOT seen him since. He is now refferred to as Fernie The Fink. I seriously dount anything can make me want to use his proper title of doctor ever again. He lost that respect when he lied to me, betrayed my trust and then abandoned me without medical care fully knowing it would send me into a big mess.

When Fernie the fink left, my new docctor took me off of Avandia and that detroyed the control of my diabetes. I am now on Doctor #4 and about to look for Doctro #5 because I am sick of the level of care I am getting.

My family life is full of drama and trauma. Alot of the times I feel like I am not wanted by my family.Other times I feel like they only want me for what I can do for them. My friends are either too far away to walk to or they are in different towns entirely. I have no dependable transportation and feel like I am trapped in my apartment most days.

I have spent the last 18 months or so trying to get back on track and so far I am in a losing battle. So that is basically my life right now. The more I try to explain this , the more I feel like I am never going to get any better and it is really making me depressed so bye for now.