Thursday, September 06, 2012
I'm so tired of the up and down. I can't seem to maintain any weight for very long. I was down to nearly my goal weight in January 2010 and I maintained it for about a year. Then, I went into overdrive to loose for a beach vacation. I dropped down to my goal and then I felt like I deserved a bit of a "reward" and let myself slack a bit on the eating and exercise. Three months and 25 pounds later, I was frustrated again. I dropped down a bit and maintained that through the next holidays, where I gained again! Then, my wedding was coming up this past May so I really got serious about working out. I dropped 17 pounds (down to about 145) and looked great. Then I again felt like I deserved a bit of a reward on my honeymoon and I also was dealing with the loss of a family member. Now I've had another 25 pound gain in three months! I'm exhausted just typing all this.
I'm not sure if my goal weight is just too low for me to maintain, or if I just need to work harder to keep my motivation. Whatever kept me on track to loose it all goes right out the window as soon as I start feeling good about my weight. I'm tired of the yo-yo and i just want to reach a healthy weight and maintain it! I'm back on the weight-loss wagon again, and this time I'm not getting off.