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Tough Mudder Fears

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Hi all! This Saturday I'm participating in the Tough Mudder Wisconsin event. I am starting to believe I have lost my mind.

I promised my friends I would sign up after they finished last year's event. I reasoned that I had a year to get ready. Well, that year is gone and instead of losing the 60 pounds I had planned on losing, I lost 30.

I also haven't built up to the point where I can do an unassisted pull-up, or even push-ups on my toes. I'm very close, but close only counts...well, you know.
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(This is as close as I can get to horseshoes & hand grenades, in case you were wondering...)

So, I'm starting to worry. I'm thinking about ways of backing out without looking like a wuss. (Which I am, but I don't like to acknowledge that too often, you know?)

I'm running through the race and coming up with all the horrible things that could happen. This is a trait I picked up from my mother (thanks, Mom!). Bear with me as I run through some of them...

-I could fall on my face
-I could fall on my face in the first obstacle
-I could fall on my face in the first obstacle and break my nose
-I could fall on my face in the first obstacle and break my nose, dying instantly
-I could fall off one of the height obstacles, and get stuck in the mud and suffocate

You get the point. My worry meter is off the charts! I'm pretty sure I'm not going to die, but my mother is not a risk-taker and instilled an abnormally high level of fear into my soul.

The more realistic fears I have are:
-I won't be able to finish
-I will have to skip many obstacles
-People will laugh at me
-The people helping others will not want to help me because I'm too heavy...230 pounds is a lot to haul
-I will hurt myself (I know I will fall - everyone falls in this event - and I fall hard)

After last week's half-marathon debacle, I'm even more concerned.
I know I should just suck it up and do the event, but I really feel like I don't belong. This is an event for tougher people than I.

Any suggestions? Any Mudder finishers out there have an opinion?
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    I've never done one of these events but think you should try. You've lost a significant amount of weight and even if you don't feel like it, you are in good condition. While you my not feel that you have trained for this particular event, you have. You've worked hard and should go for it.

    And worst case scenario, you fall or can't finish, YOU tried. I bet you will have a great time. Can't wait to hear the details.

    GO JEN GO!!
    2017 days ago
    I heard from a friend that there is a ton of teamwork involved. Try to have a good time and do your best! Just think about how awesome you are for even trying! You are tough! :)
    2018 days ago
    My vote.... do the race!

    If you don't, you will be beating yourself up for not following through. It will remain in your head that you backed out.

    Even if you fall, even if you don't get a time that you want, you will have succeeded in yet another amazing event. All you can do is try.....

    You got this Jen... I know you do! Get dirty, have fun, and fill us in on all the dirty details!

    2018 days ago
    Hey Jen, you are so amazing to try all of these new experiences. I find that so inspiring. Please do the race. Don't worry about the time. Just do your best.
    2018 days ago
    I have done one of these events before. I was grossed out by the mud pit but by the 3rd pit... you get used to it.LOL.

    My real advice - don't try to race the clock. I saw people get injuried because they were more focused on speed. Just have a good time and take your time. It is really a fun experience and you will have your friends along side you. They wouldn't have signed up for a 2nd year if it wasn't fun, right?

    Remember, we gain strength by conquering our fears.
    2018 days ago
    Ack! You can do this. You probably will fall on your face (just like everyone else!) and you WILL be covered in mud! Even if you can't do some of the obstacles, make friends and get's one of those races you can't do on your own. Unfortunately I will not be able to race :( but, I will be there to cheer some of my friends on. My hopes are for next year. I just hope it comes this close again.

    Have fun, get dirty and try not to get zapped too many times.

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    2018 days ago
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