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I Won't Treat Myself Like a Garbage Can

Thursday, September 06, 2012

I got this message board entry by member SJKRACH in my email today and wanted to share it here.
How many of us have gone through this? Perhaps even on a regular basis? Perhaps with nearly every meal? When I eat garbage, aren't I treating my body like a garbage can? Shouldn't I be treating it like a temple?

Read and see if you can relate.

Over the last few days I've realized that if it's in the kitchen, I will eat it. Additionally, during a binge, I treat my body as if it were a garbage can.

Last night I went through an episode where I went to the cupboard over and over again and ate things that I no longer want in the house because they are some of my triggers (seriously, that is how I rationalized it... I wanted them finished and gone, but did not simply throw them in the trash. I had to consume them.)

Some of the junk I ate was old and not even particularly palatable (a dollar store chocolate bar from Christmas!) Some items were healthy enough if part of a nutrition plan and eaten in appropriate portions (pistachios and vitatop muffins). But I was on a mission to "finish" them.

At one point last night as I was following my sweet, salty, sweet pattern (truly can't say I was having cravings as it was not that strong of a bodily driven desire), I realized that I was treating my body as if it were a garbage can. As if I were a garbage can! At that moment, this awareness still was not enough to stop me. I don't know what the psychology is behind what I was doing (addiction? emotional? boredom?), but this isn't the first time I've done this. It is a pattern I recognize in myself and experience time and time again throughout my life.

Today, being a new day and my Spark renewed, the idea of treating my body and therefore myself as a garbage can is a more disgusting concept and motivating visual. My body is not a garbage can and I will not treat it as if it were. My body is an amazing work that responds fairly quickly and positively to care and nourishment. I am not trash and I won't trash myself.

Edited by: SJKRACH at: 8/14/2012 (07:48)
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  • v KELLY122581
    I went through this a few times when I was trying to quit smoking. I had a quit date set up, the day came and i still had half a pack.... and I felt like it was a waste to throw them away, so I would hurry up and smoke them, and my quit day came and went in a flurry of smoke. Something psychological about not smoking because I ran out was not as powerful as not smoking because I threw them away.

    Finally (the time that quitting stuck), my quit date came and I ran the pack under water, squashed it flat, and then dumped it ceremoniously into the trash.

    Ok, yeah, I lost a couple bucks, but I didn't put more nicotine into my body in an effort to not "waste" the money. I came to a realization that any money I spent on cigarettes was a waste anyway, smoked or not.

    I've adopted a similar philosophy about food I know I don't want to eat, and if it comes into the house, I give it away or throw it away before I have a chance to binge on it. I've had a couple binge moments recently, and was seriously saved by this philosophy of mine.
    1451 days ago
  • v TENNISJIM
    Thank you for sharing the story
    1451 days ago
  • v CINDYGRACE
    I could not believe that anyone else in this world does this besides me. I will sometimes eat some pretty strange combinations, just to get them out of the house. And just like you, I will go from sweet to salty, then back to sweet.

    Is there something wrong with us, or what.

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    1452 days ago
  • v FIRECOM
    AMEN, Bro.
    1452 days ago
  • v MILPAM3
    Recognition of the problem is the first step to solving it.
    1452 days ago
  • v ANNESYLVIA
    Gees, were you a fly on my kitchen wall this week? I honestly ate food this week, after asking my children if they wanted it, that I just wanted gone! I rationalize it by saying this way it won't be there for the next time! Yikes!


    1452 days ago
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