Thursday, September 06, 2012
Feeling melancholy this week. My new job is okay--nice people, but as I said before, not the line of work I wanted to fall back into. And I miss knowing people--having no one to talk to or say hi to or update them on how my sick kitty is doing...I miss people interaction. Sigh. I know it'll change as I adjust--I just don't want to make the same mistake at this job as I have at others--getting too personal with co-workers, and letting their moods and attitudes towards me set the tone for the day.
I'm sure I'll adjust--right???
Kitty is still lethargic and sad and...so so sad. I just want to squeeze her and cuddle her, which is the last thing she wants right now. Sigh again.
I seriously want to throw my hands up in the air and join my gym's weight loss program. Give up control to someone else for a while. Obviously my attempts at it are a dismal failure--maybe taking a backseat for a time will give me a chance to rest and recoup, while building confidence in finally seeing some weight loss/body composition change.
OR, I'm totally off base about that too--giving up control may make me rebel and do even stupider (lol) things. I dunno. I'm just sick of watching the scale go down, get hopeful, then have it jump back up. Le Sigh.
Lol. I'm such a whiner. You'd think I'd be grateful to just be out of my stressful job and onto another one with little job hunting in between. Why can't I ever just be satisfied with what I have??
Maybe because I keep settling? I can honestly say I'm very, very satisfied and happy with my home, which we jumped through mega hoops to get. Hmmm....a convo I should have w/hubby tonight.