Wednesday, September 05, 2012
Wow, it's been about a month since I wrote the last blog about not letting the excuses rule my fitness & eating. I just re-read what I wrote and have mixed feelings about it. My first feeling was disappointment in myself that the motivation and planning I expressed in the blog didn't carry through like I had hoped.
My daughter's closing on their house in Indy was delayed almost a month, so I was with her and the grandkids for over three of those weeks, either here at our home or in Indy. Life just got so crazy and the stress everyone was under was horrific! To add to it, she had signed up for a sprint triathlon in Indy before this transfer was even offered to my son-in-law and she was still wanting to do it. Her training time came first! Plus, she needed it mentally to relieve some of the stress she was under. (Side note: She did complete it and I am extremely proud of her for sticking with it. She is really made of strong stuff!)
My second feeling was surprise in that as I read it, it sounded like so many other blogs I have read from other people. The reflection of what happened and why and then coming to a decision to change it for the better. That is such an important part of this whole SP thing. The fact that I am not the only person to be struggling with motivation or emotional eating. There are thousands of people just like me who are doing the same thing I am day after day, many with much more hardship and stress than I have and they are succeeding! It makes me want to try even harder to succeed myself.
After reading what I wrote last month and thinking back to everything that happened this past month, the last feeling I had is hard to put into words. It's basically that I am ok with what happened and how I am doing right now. Do I wish I had been more committed to working out and eating healthier? Yes, but I made the decisions I made, taking everything into consideration at the time. I made the choices I made for a reason and it doesn't help to second guess them now. Yeah, I'm ok with it. Now, it's time to move ahead and get back to a healthier me. Look out running shoes, here I come!