So 2012 has been an interesting year... w/ plenty of ups & downs... esp. on the scale! Had my 25th Class Reunion this year, which makes one feel old as hell. Also married off my middle stepson to his high school sweetheart, in fact, just one week after the reunion. Been down to Disney a couple times to visit my own son, who's extremely happy there (who wouldn't be, working at the "happiest place on earth"? LoL). Overall, a pretty exciting year so far...
BUT in the midst of all of this, I have been been on a roller coaster ride w/ my weight! I've been up and down repeatedly over the past the first 2/3 of this year, but this past month or so, I've definitely been on the UPside of the journey. In fact, after returning from my most recent trip to see my son in August, I decided to step on the scale and see just how much damage I had done. Imagine my shock (and disgust) when I realized that I had allowed myself to get back up to 252 lbs.!
Yes... I am saying "allowed myself"... because this didn't accidentally happen. I didn't just wake up one morning and "find" all of this extra weight on my body. I ate the food, I drank the wine, and I vegged out on the couch instead of going for that walk... all choices that I made to put me back to this point in my weight loss journey. No one else is to blame: not my hubby who brought my favorite snacks into the house... because I am the one who put those snacks in my mouth instead of choosing from the plethara of healthy choices that were available. Not my co-workers who ordered take-out at work, which in turn I did as well... because I had a good healthy meal w/ me, but chose to eat the chips & cheese or pizza that was delivered to my workplace. Not my stress fracture in my foot... because there are non-weight bearing things I could've done during that month off from work to get a little exercise in instead of just veggin' out on the couch (which led to more eating). And I could go on & on... you see where I'm going w/ this... but the important part of this is the fact that I refuse to come up w/ "excuses" for why I've regained the weight! Instead, I am taking ownership of the choices that I made... and in turn, now must do the extra work to lose that weight again, and more, so that I can finally reach my goal weight.
So... I made plans to get back on track once I returned from my vacation to Disney last week... getting everything in place to be successful upon my return. Can't explain why, but I have recently discovered this newfound resilliance... a deep motivation to do everything I can to succeed... and to make this a PERMANENT lifestyle change, so that this time next year, instead of sounding like a broken record, I can be celebrating my success & dealing w/ the maintenance portion of this journey! The ironic thing is... as if a sign from fate, I was named the SP Motivator of the Day! How cool was that? And what an honor... which just gave me even more motivation to do this!
In fact, I was so excited to begin, I did so on the way home from Disney... which was last Wed. In one week's time, I have been 100% on plan w/ my nutrition... and w/out even adding in exercise yet, I was able to lose 8 lbs. in my 1st week! (now, I am aware that most of that is probably water weight... but I'll take it!) After making sure my foot felt up to par, I headed back to the gym after work yesterday AM, and worked out in the pool for an hour, swimming laps, doing lunges & squats, and treading water in the deep end. And since I had more energy in the evening, I even went for a walk w/ my BFF at our local track... I'm tellin' ya, I've got some good motivation!
So here we go... as ya'll know (and my name implies), I'm a Nascar fan... so I just took the green flag, and I'm goin' all out to reach my goals!