Tuesday, September 04, 2012
I feel better today...I suppose I couldn't get too much worse from where I was 2 days ago. I'm still not completely resolved with the work issue but I did talk to hubby and feel a little better. I want to make training my occupation and I know the obstacles. It's just a matter of tackling them...studying and passing my test, carving out the time to create new classes at the gym, finding ways to get clients at the gym, creating routines that are engaging and will make people work and keep coming back for more, and the most challenging of all is continuing to step out of my comfort zone of follower and grasp the leadership role. All of these things, in action or even just the thought of doing them, bring out the emotional eating monster that I thought I'd buried in the spring. Overconfidence, much? Here, I was running and thereby fueling my body with the right foods. I was not concerned with studying and training, I was happy and losing inches and pounds. Summer hit...I stopped running, I stopped eating as well as I was, I started teaching kickboxing at the gym and creating my own routines, I subbed for kids day camp with the boys in tow, and I started gaining inches and pounds back.
The core of this all is my emotional eating. The roller-coaster high and the spiral are both to be warned against. I know finding my even keel will help me succeed in all of this. It is hard to believe that I committed to the healthy lifestyle almost 3 years ago. A lot has changed and nothing has changed. I know what I must to do make my goals. It's a matter of practicing it daily. It's obvious that sparking and support hasn't changed...when I include both, I'm more successful. With all of this mind, here are a few goals for the rest of the month and the rest of the year.
At least a short blog or board post when I log onto SP
Conquer chapter one and chapter two of my ACE Exercise Science book
Pick up where I left off on my "Eat What You Love, Love What You Eat" book
Run 3x a week
Mindful eating...no tracking yet, just self-checking before I take a bite of anything
By December 4...three months from now AND my 38th birthday:
Have my ACE test scheduled
Run sub-12 minute mile while passing a talk test
Drop back comfortably into my size 12s
Start my plan of attack for races in 2013...I want to at least do a Run For Your Life (zombie obstacle course race) and maybe one other obstacle course race. I want to be able to do the monkey bars/wall climb and I know I'll need a combination of weight loss and upper body strength work. Will re-evaluate where I am weight/strength wise, and figure out what I can do over the winter to plan for the spring.
The major question mark in all of these goals is my attitude. Can I remain optimistic and realistic? Can I ride the lows, enjoy the highs, and keep my goals in mind all at once? I've practiced one bite at a time before and became food obsessed. If I can find the middle ground and forgive myself more easily I can do this.