It's only Sept 4 and my paycheck is almost gone (ooops). I know I can make it work, and I'll be fine, but its just stressful. I hadn't had a regular paycheck since mid May and I felt like I was catching up with all the bills I was behind on. It had to be done, but it means the next 26 days are going to be tight! I did go shopping (definitely spent too much money) on Saturday and bought new jeans, shirts and sweaters for work.

I officially have gone down a size! I usually shop at Torrid because I like the styles and selection that they have. I feel like I can dress my age rather than dressing like a 40-50 year old. I don't mean that 40-50+ year olds don't dress well, but there is just a difference in style for someone older than me, and also for someone who is younger than me too. I tried on some size 22 jeans and.... THEY FIT!!!!! They were a tiny bit tight, but last time I went shopping, a few months ago, 24's were fitting the same way- a little tight- and now they just slipped right on/are a little big :-). I also am usually between a size 3 and 4 in their shirts- the size range is a 0-4- (sometimes even 4's were a little tight), and this time all the 3's that I tried on fit great! Its just a really fantastic feeling to know that the work I've put in has really started to pay off and its something that I can see now in the clothing that I'm buying.

This weekend was really good. I went shopping on Saturday, then spent time with "The Boy". He made some comments on Saturday evening- all pretty sweet/good- and one involved wanting to go to church together.

We both grew up going to church and have talked about wanting to start going again, but for me, I have had a really hard time finding a church that I like and actually want to go to. All of the churches anyone, especially my parents, have suggested are just... not what I'm wanting- they have no diversity and are just a mix of white, white and more white people and even though I am white I just don't really feel comfortable in those kind of congregations. I also prefer going to a church that's not necessarily in "rich suburbia"...I just don't feel that I really connect with groups in those areas...Its probably just because of experiences I've had/people I've worked with/kids I've taught. I do a lot better when there are various types of people from different backgrounds/cultures.

Anywho... after the comments he made, while I am definitely being a girl and probably reading too much into things- who knows maybe some of you guys can clue me in- I feel like we might be starting to kind of move forward with things a little...I'm hoping that he's realizing after spending so much time with me and noticing I'm still the same girl from a year ago- easy going, not pressuring him, don't want kids, supportive... and still love football, fishing, hanging out, etc....that it might be something that he wants on a more permenant/serious level.... I'm not going to push my luck or overthink things (well...I'm going to TRY not to anyways) but I'm hoping that sometime in the (near) future maybe he'll figure it out haha. We've just had some serious conversations about how if either of us get married (the conversations never revolve around US necessarily) that we want to be going to church with the other person and have a good/strong foundation with church/God being a huge part of that. The fact that he brought up wanting to go to church together just kind of made me think he might be thinking a little more long term or possible outside of just being friends(???).

On Saturday, we played games and just hung out. Then on Sunday, we went fishing- we hadn't been in a while so it was nice to finally get out for a while. On Monday, he and I just hung out at our own places and then I brought dinner over to his place and we ate, I helped him set up an excel sheet for work, and watched a movie. Then, I went home and went to bed.

I didn't sleep very well at all last night. I was constantly waking up, having really weird dreams and just couldn't get settled. I'm hoping that I'll sleep better tonight!

I know that this blog was just super random and didn't have a lot to do with diet/exercise, but its just what is going on with me.

Until Next Time