Tuesday, September 04, 2012
There is a woman I know that really drives me crazy. I call her "Blabby Gabby-Gonna Do". She is always coming up with ideas- I am gonna do this and then I am gonna do that.....and she talks...and sometimes is even fun to listen to....but she never really gets much done.
I am Blabby. I talk and talk...I even do...and then undo. And I always ending up standing in the same old place, telling the same old stories.
My commitment to myself was to come back to Sparkpeople...and to come back to my FOCUS when September came and the kids were back in school. I need time for myself. This summer made me realize how little of that I really get.
I think for a while, I will just stop all of my talking, and really try to crank up the doing. Then, when there is something to finally tell, I'll fire up the band and parade and tell it!! But I need to get back to using SPark the way I once had when things were working- as a way to monitor what I am doing- tracking- and as a way to stay motivated and focused.
I am not going to say today is another beginning, a fresh start. I have already worn that out. Today is just a day that I decided to show up. Hopefully if I can string more of those days together, I will start to shape a more positive and successful journey. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step...but it sure would be nice to learn to stop walking in circles! That becomes a journey to frustration and self doubt.
I am a Gabby girl...but I am also filled with hope, desire, dreams and ideas! I need to harness those onto one, razor sharp focus...into DISCIPLINE! I also plan to shift that focus and look further ahead, like in the saying below. Rather than just looking at today, I need to keep my eye on the ultimate goal- so that I stop forgetting that "well just today" is an attitude that can blow my chances of ever reaching the goals I stay so hopeful of reaching! I really want to keep my eyes forward, far forward, to that time when I can actually look at myself and say "WOW! Look how much you got done when you just shut up and started working!!!"