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Back to Labor Day

Monday, September 03, 2012

Thanks to everyone who posted their sympathies on my last blog and and on Nicole's page as well. It took me a couple of weeks to come back here and read them because the whole horrible thing has me all choked up STILL. To imagine delivering a beautiful daughter in September, being diagnosed with breast cancer in February, and gone from this earth in August... Well, there really are no words other than what I've already said other than make sure you give yourself a breast exam every month and take any abnormalities seriously.

August was tough for me and I backslid into some bad habits. I'm not going to lie. I ate too much and didn't move enough. I thought summer was going to be easier because I was promised a lot of help with Keira so I could get work done. My grandmother couldn't help it: she had a stroke and can't care for her like she used to, but it still kind of sickens me that my 18-year-old cousin who is able-bodied and wasn't working or doing anything productive this summer and promised to help out totally reneged. Seriously, it was a struggle getting her to keep an eye on Keira when I went to the bathroom, never mind give me any time to get meaningful work done or let me get a workout in...

But summer is over and I'm letting go. There were some great moments, like spending time outdoors with Keira, meeting my SP friend Court, having my best friends from PA and CA come and visit us...

Today is "Back to Labor Day." I have a new part-time job writing and editing immigration content for a legal website and I'm back to my solo practice and actively soliciting new clients again. Keira starts daycare tomorrow for three days a week and I'm simultaneously worried and relieved, if that's even possible. It will give me time to write and work and take care of myself again, but after being the primary caregiver for 8 months, it will be hard to let go.

I'm backing out of my half marathon I planned to run at the end of September, because I struggled to lose weight and break 5 miles this summer. I couldn't handle the additional rigors of a training schedule, sadly. I am still signed up for the Philadelphia Marathon (deferred due to last year's pregnancy) and I'm switching to the half obviously and I'm committed to at least run-walking it. But the focus needs to be on losing weight because I'm not happy with my body and how I feel.

So right now, I pledge to get some activity in every day and to resume eating healthfully, and loftier goals will follow.

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    I'm just now reading this and hope things are settling into a workable routine for you. There's a lot of us who are taking serious September looks at what we've been doing and ready to make the changes; glad you're one of them!
    2009 days ago
    I, too, know you'll fall right back into good habits and training for your race. You've taught yourself how it works and know how to do it. Fall is my FAVORITE time of year. The cooler weather, pumpkins and well, cooler weather-lol is refreshing after a long, hot summer and helps us feel ready to get back to work! You're gonna kick fall in the patootie!
    2010 days ago
    emoticon It's hard to get going, but once you do, you remember why you did and why you ever stopped. That's what I'm going through now. I can't even imagine the juggling you are doing between work, home, and the baby, but I know you'll make it happen. You've accomplished many things over the last few years - can't wait to see what else you'll do! Spark on!

    2010 days ago
    Happy September! Glad things are looking up!
    2015 days ago
    I'm reading this late...hope you are doing well and adjusting to having the munchkin in daycare! hugs
    2016 days ago
    Beautiful pics!! We can do this!! Our journies are similar in terms of weight!!
    2017 days ago
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    Hi love!! I'm sorry you've had such a hard time with family watching Keira, that must be so frustrating. It'll be tough putting her into daycare but I think it will definitely be worth it for both your work and fitness sanity. I don't blame you for not doing the half, you don't wanna push it and injure yourself. Soooo no half = let's go see Bret Michaels at the casino and dress up like rock of love trash! That'll cheer you up hahaha It was so great to finally meet you this summer, can't wait to hang out again :)
    2021 days ago
    Don't ever forget that you've been an inspiration to so many people (me included) from the get-go, and we're still looking to you because you are SO real, even in your struggles. I know, I have them too. But I have so much faith in you that you're going to push through this tough stuff and get back to that girl who was posting all those cute pics in your tiny little dresses :) They're calling your name!
    2021 days ago
    Cute family!
    2021 days ago
    I know you will get back on track in no time. The best part of summer is that you were able to spend some wonderful time with family and friends celebrating all that life has blessed you with!!!

    We got this whole fall thing...let's kick some fall, girlie!!!
    2021 days ago
    Life always throws a wrench into our plans....I think this is true, because if it didn't we would become to comfortable. Attack things 1 day at a time.
    2021 days ago
    Great photos and goals! One day at at time!
    2022 days ago
    2022 days ago
    There are so many changes when you're blessed with a baby. They require so much of your time and attention that it's easy to get caught up in the trap of being just a mom. Sending her to daycare will be good for her but especially good for you. You deserve time devoted to only to you, your career and your fitness goals. I know you'll have a very productive Fall.
    2022 days ago
    I know that you will do this. I really think that having Keira at daycare will really be beneficial towards your work AND weight loss/fitness. I'm sure it will take some getting used to, but you do deserve some alone time!

    Let's do this !
    2022 days ago
    What a beautiful post and I love the theme - Back to Labor Day. It's not the falling down..it's the getting up and I'm right there with you. Amazing pics too!
    2023 days ago
    Kristina, you have a lot on your plate - I think that as your gorgeous little girl gets a bit older and you are more into the swing of things, life will get easier. Having a baby is probably one of the most stressful and exciting times - be kind to yourself.

    I know you will sail across the finish line in Philly with a big smile on your face!
    2023 days ago
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