Saturday, September 01, 2012
I think this weekend has become the culmination of all my failed efforts over the summer. I don't know what I ate last night, but I ate pretty much everything that I saw, and a whole lot of it. I've been paying for it all day. After a week of bringing lunches and trying not to over eat, last night killed my system. I suppose that is reason enough not to do it again.
I reset my goals today. I need to focus. I need to fill up my life with things that do not include just sitting on the couch doing nothing. I do a lot of that these days. I have all this time right now while I'm not taking classes, and I'm just wasting it. No more. I will change this no matter what I do.
My goal for tomorrow is to drink plenty of water. I am taking my husband to BaconFest, which is sure to be a mecca for unhealthy eating, but I will do my best to find reasonable and healthy options. I am going to get up early and do something, even if it is just a video, before I leave the house. I am going to eat breakfast before I leave.
I started making better decisions this past week (bringing lunch being the biggest of these) and I need to keep that going. I cannot, no, I WILL NOT live in this body any longer. I'm sick of hating what I look like. I love the person that I am, but now it is time for the outside to match the inside.
So, binge weekend, I am kicking you to the curb. I may not be perfect for the rest of the weekend, but I'm sure going to try to be better.