Saturday, September 01, 2012
So today is September 1. Today begins a new promise to myself. It was an ugly summer and I knew it. I had to step back and get it all together. I spent the last 2 weeks planning, prepping and taking it all back. I promised myself that BY September 1 I would go back on plan.
And I did, actually on August 27. I have been eating better and moving more. I wasn't perfect, but I know I never will be. I will shoot for perfection as I do everything else in my life, but I will live my life too. But, the key here is that it will be MY life.
I had lost 85 lbs. And then people started to notice. And then they wanted to own me. And I let them. My sister is very judgmental. And it didn't matter to her that I had lost all this weight on my own, she now wanted her say and her criticism and her plans for me to creep into my plans. And I let it. And the gym I was going to did the same. They had new ideas and plans for me. And I listened and followed. And it all came crashing down. I gained weight back.
So today, I owned up to that on the scale. Tomorrow (because I forgot today) I will own up to it on the measuring tape. But I am taking my life back. For one month I am trying Chris Powell's carb cycling. But if I am not happy in one month with the results (and if I am honest about how hard I worked at it), then we will go from there. If that doesn't work, then I am going TOTALLY back to what I did at the beginning, 2 years ago.
For exercise, I am going back to swimming (at least for September while I still have my swim card) and walking. I will go to the gym to lift weights when I can, but I need to find a new gym. Now that it is Fall their hours of 8:30am - 10:00am and 3:15pm-4:30pm won't work for me. They have one session in the mornings at 6:00am but then the next is at 8:30??? And two or three nights a week they have sessions at 5:30pm. I don't know how they think working people are suppose to get there. I will see about trying the 6:00am. And I will try the 5:30pm. But since what I do is lift weights there, I will walk, I will swim, and I will likely look for a new gym to lift at.
It wasn't easy stepping on that scale this morning. But it had to be done. Because I promised myself a while ago this had to get turned around. And I made the mistake of not "owning" up to my starting weight when I began this process and regretted it later since I still have to guess at how much weight I lost.
It's time. It's time for all of us. If you have weight you want to lose or exercise you want to start, it is probably your time to (of course with your doctor's permission if you see one). Join me.
And at the very least, I will report back here on October 1 how September went. But another goal is to again be more active here. Among my friends. The ones who buoy me up when I need it, the ones who make valid suggestions, and the ones who challenge me when I need to be challenged.
Let's go. September is already 9 hours old and I haven't had breakfast!!