Saturday, September 01, 2012
Sort of... it's kinda day 49, but it's 12:12 am for me right now.
Seriously I'm wigging out over a few things,
1 having to drive all by myself to dallas in the morning
2 spending the morning with my aunt and cousin, who I've never spent more than 3 hours with my whole life!!! And that was only on holidays
3 (and this is the big one) I've got my weigh in tomorrow and I'm so tired of being in the 170's, and I know it's not going to be good because I wasn't able to make it to the gym on Thursday
But I only missed one day this week, that one day. I think it's just because I haven't done much cardio this week so I'm afraid I haven't burned enough calories. But I haven't gone over on my calories with eating except maybe one day this week and I even had chinese today!
I probably freaking out over nothing but I'm just so tired of being stuck! So tired of being in the 170's!!! I'm not where I want to be, and it's not just the number it's how I look... I hate this body and I'm so tired of looking at it!!! I'm so ready to like myself! So ready to be comfortable in my own skin!!! I'm 24 and just to wake up with a body not covered in stretch marks and floppy skin would be so amazing!!! I used to pray all the time to wake up and be skinny.
To ease myself I'm going to do a quick 20 minute turbo jam, then I know I'll have done everything I can today to set myself up for success.